Name: Tman

I'm not sure where to start so ill just start from the beginning.

It all started long before I could remember. My mum says that every 
time I went to get my diaper changed I was in pain with my back 
problem... "I'm not sure what my back problem was at the time" but I 
accepted it.

So... where I do remember is in pre-school where I learnt that if I 
fold a peace of a4 paper in half and cut the edges off then it looked 
kind of like a diaper.
So for the 1 year that I was in pre-school I made these diapers all the 
time. When I got home I put on one of the diapers before I went to bed. 
I got my mum to help me and I was very shy at this age. My dad would 
say "only babies were diapers" but I just ignored him. I didn't care. I 
had my diaper on and I was happy. Then mum would scratch my head while 
I was put to sleep. When I woke up my mum had removed all the tape and 
paper that I had used to diaper myself the night before and all the 
diapers I had made at school. So I just made more.

This went on until the start of year 1. I enjoyed wearing the paper 
diaper and I enjoyed making them. When I started year 1 I couldn't make 
them any more year 1 was much more work then pre-school. So I worked 
and I stopped wearing my paper diapers. This went on until I wanted to 
were diapers so much that I wanted to ask my mum because she was the 
only one that understood me and didn't tease me about it in pre-school. 
So I wanted to talk to mum but dad was to busy talking to her already. 
I waited and waited then dad said what's up? And I replied oh I just 
wanted to talk to mum about something. "Ok" she said. I waited I didn't 
want my dad to here it all. So I said dad its a secret can you please 
leave. He wasn't too happy he said there are no secrets in this family! 
I refused to tell him since this was such a tough subject. So he made 
me stand in the corner. I did and I waited and waited. Mum soon came up 
to me and said ok I've talked to dad and he says that its ok you can go 
ahead and tell me and I wont tell him. She said
"You promise?" I asked.
"Yes don't worry ill keep it a full secret" she said.
I wasn't sure but I told her anyway since she didn't ever break her 
promises I told her that I wanted to were diapers again. She said shell 
think about it and I was dismissed from the spot that I was grounded 
to. Later that night after I was put down to sleep I woke up and went 
to the toilet. I walked back to my room when I heard. "...He wants to 
were diapers again..." mum said OH NO! I thought to myself while I ran 
back to bed. I waited there and thought to myself Why did she tell why 
why why. After that I never have truly trusted her. I woke up the next 
day and everyone seemed like it didn't happen no one said anything and 
everyone was happy. Except for me I was unhappy but didn't show it to 
anyone. I did the normal things and continued on with my day. Nothing 
much happened but I didn't want to ask what happened or bring up the 
conversation that I heard the night before. I just accepted it and 
considered myself not to be normal... I decided and convinced myself 
that it is just a phase that I am going through that that in time I 
will become to not like diapers. which seemed normal to me. I did 
nothing and kept my secret a secret. When grade 3 came my little 
brother was born and I was very happy that I had a little brother to 
diaper and play with. I never told anyone but I enjoyed diapering him 
heaps. This was really fun. And when he turned 1. I went into the 
bathroom to do a #2 and the changing table was on the side I went to 
the changing table with my pants down and looked at it. I waited and 
decided that I would just try one on. At this age I was still a dl. So 
I couldn't get on the changing table so I got a towel and put it on the 
floor. I pulled out one of the diapers. Wow it was pretty big but not 
sure if it was big enough to fit me. I got on the floor and lied down 
this time I was 9 years old and had a small penis and didn't get 
aroused by the diaper. I pulled the diaper on my but just like I did 
for my little brother and then pulled the diaper up between my diaper 
and my penis. This felt great I had this great sensation between my 
legs. I covered my penis and it felt great I fastened the Velcro tapes 
and stood up. Wow it fit pretty well. I looked at myself in the mirror 
and looked at myself for a while. I felt around everywhere to touch it 
and just feel it because I had never or remembered myself in a diaper. 
This was amazing it was so different! I looked at it oh my god I'm 
wearing a diaper I didn't believe it but I was it was so cool. I walked 
around in circles and pretended to be a baby. and stuff. I did this for 
about 5 min before I decided if I spent to long in there they will get 
curious about it so I packed up and put the diaper back in the case. I 
walked out with everything in place. I was on a "Natural high"
This was cool. I decided to go and do something else. I did this for 
another year and no one caught me in the diaper and I dare not do 
anything in it because I was too scared. My little brother finally got 
out of diapers and I decided that I was going to give them up to and 
get over my obsession. I thought about keeping just a few but then 
decided not to. Later in life I didn't really care for diapers much but 
they were still in the back of my mind. Later, entering my teens I was 
12 years old and down at the gold coast. I bought my computer and I was 
board so I as I said before had diapers in the back of my mind. I 
decided to look at diapers and kids in diapers and pretend they were 
me. I thought it was fun. Until I was looking for toddlers I looked up 
"big baby diaper" in Google pictures and got a few but the weird thing 
was I found a teenager in a diaper I looked at this and thought WOW 
that's ok!

I looked for more and soon enough I came to Deeker's Diaper Page. I 
looked at it and it had exactly what I wanted. great stories and a 
great guestbook. and other stuff. I sent out stories and read heaps of 
them. I also wrote "getting the diapers" which was a success in getting 
through to the web page. I also wrote 2 other of my fantasies that I 
had in there witch I thought were great and wrote just for this page. I 
devote my diaperness to Deeker thanks Deeker. Your page influenced me 
to become an actual diaper lover instead a diaper lover without the 
guts to get them. I decided one day at the gold coast. I was all alone 
with no one that I could go and get some diapers in the shops that were 
extra large and I might, just might fit into them as I did 4 years ago. 
So I went there and looked at them. No, I decided it was too risky I 
went home and accessed Deeker.

Ok
So I finally went home empty handed and accessed Deeker to look. I 
looked at pictures of the drawings and masturbated... yea I know some 
of you are thinking EWWW. But that's me ok?

Ok
I did this and became very attached to these diapers. Ever since I have 
gone out and bought diapers "getting the diapers" and I have found out 
that pull-ups for toddlers extra large fit me nicely and probably L 
would fit me to but I got XL to just be sure. Then I bought home brand. 
(store brand) extra large diapers. Which are very tight on me but still 
fit. And my first diapers were medium that didn't fit see "getting the 
diapers for full details"

Ok so I had these diapers. I enjoyed wearing them and sometimes peeing 
in them. I found that because my dick now is bigger that the diapers 
don't fit around the crutch area and that's where they leak. Damn that! 
Ok

I put them in a great place that no one would find them. I then bought 
a dummy for me to suck on witch wasn't that cool but it was fun. I use 
that until my dad found it and through it out. Then just a few days ago 
he found my diapers and Pull-ups I had 4 cases nearly full of diapers 
and I found him disposing of them. I didn't say anything neither did 
he. I have now decided that this is my last visit to Deeker until I 
can't wait anymore. And I am now going to try and give up diapers 
forever... WISH ME luck because I am going to need it very much so... I 
think all the DLs, TBs, ABs, bedwetters, medical diaper wearers. Are 
all great and what ever your reason is for wearing diapers I think 
you're great.!!!! Good luck and I probably be visiting you guys soon if 
I'm not successful please Deeker put this on your page if not email me 
it back! Because this is devoted to you and every other diaper wearing 
person in the world!!!!!!! THANKS GUYS! FOR UR GREAT STORIES AND THANKS 
DEEKER FOR YOUR PAGE!!