LIFELONG DESIRE

	From my earliest memories, I have always wanted to be a diaper 
wearer. The first diaper experience I could remember was when I was 
about 4 or 5. My mom was babysitting one of my cousins who was a 
toddler still in diapers. I used to like to watch her change him and 
wipe him and put a fresh, clean diaper on him. I wanted to wear them 
too but I knew that mom wouldn't let me. "You're too old for diapers," 
she would say. Then one day I got an idea. I would ask my mom for a 
diaper to put on one of my stuffed animals. she would put the diaper on 
my teddy bear and I would take it back to my room, take the diaper off 
of the bear and try to put it on myself. Of course my mom was never one 
to let us out of her sight for more than a minute. She came in my room 
and caught me trying to put the diaper on. "Aha, I suspected you might 
be trying to put that diaper on!" she would take the diaper away and I 
would be denied yet another opportunity to indulge in what would become 
a lifelong pursuit.
	Later when I was about 16 and discovered the wonderful world of 
adult diapers. Of course when I would accompany my mom to the drug 
store I would always take the opportunity to steal away for a few 
minutes to go check out the incontinence section. I would look at all 
the different brands of diapers and dream of wearing them. One day I 
finally saved up enough money to buy a trial size pack of Attends 
fitted briefs(2 briefs per pack). I would get on my bicycle and ride to 
the nearest Eckerds drug store, buy the diapers and ride back home. I 
had to go to the shed and put them on because I shared a room with my 
brother and there was no chance of putting on the diapers without 
getting caught. I would put on the diaper and go ride my bicycle 
somewhere and I would wet in them and it was the greatest feeling in 
the world. I always knew that someday I would be old enough to get a 
car, move out of my mom's house and be free to wear diapers all I 
wanted without getting caught.
	When I was 22 I moved to my first apartment and I spent my first 
night wetting, messing and masturbating to my heart's content. I would 
mess and wet in a diaper before bedtime and sleep all night in it. I 
would wake up the next morning and cum in my wet, messy diaper.
It took 22 years before I could at last indulge all my diaper fantasies 
without reservation and so it is thus to this day.