As far as I know I was potty trained at a pretty regular age and apart from the odd accident I remained dry until I hit 8. For some reason not long after my birthday I started wetting the bed. It seemed like for a while I would wake up every morning soaked and after the first couple of nights that I seriously messed my pyjama pants my parents decided to put me back into diapers. Of course I was horrified when I came home from school one day to be informed by my mother of the new regime. She gave me a tour of the new facilities. As I climbed the stairs I was first confronted with a giant bag of youth disposable diapers sitting in the hall outside my room, (this clearly was not going to be concealed from my siblings). Then I was led into the bathroom to see a spacious diaper pail, all the creams, powders and wipes etc (all conspicuously baby products) lined up along the side and leaning against the wall, god knows where my parents got it from, an oversized changing mat. Finally, back in my room I was shown the neatly drawn-up chart on which my triumphs and failures were to be recorded. I cried and cried as she took me around but although I would have given anything not to be put in diapers. I did not raise my voice in objection for at least now I wouldn't wake up cold and reeking and anyone who's woken up to the mess of a pooped bed would prefer anything to confronting that again. I spent the rest of that day dreading bedtime. My brother and sister, who were already in their mid to late teens, were courteous not to remind me of my renewed status as baby and my family cheerfully tried to avert my thoughts for it was plain to see I was terribly unhappy. Mealtime came and went and was closely followed by bath time, throughout which time my mother began to become increasingly brisk at each new outburst of sniveling. My mother fetched me out of the bath quickly toweled me down and then rather then helping me into my pyjamas she lead me naked through to my bedroom. I was sat on my bed feeling stunned as my mother left the room to fetch the bits and pieces. This was the moment I had been dreading, not just for the previous few hours but ever since the wetting began. I heard her outside the room rustling the plastic wrapper open and drawing out the crisp white diaper. In she came again unfolding it as she walked, the bottle of powder under her shoulder. She laid it out open on the thickly carpeted floor of my room and instructed me, a little too sternly perhaps, to come over and lie down on it, I hadn't even noticed the tears in my eyes. I started to protest that I could do it myself but it was clear that she wasn't in a mood to be reasoned with so mutely did as she said. Memories of babydom came flooding back to me as I lay there with legs spread revealingly and the soft lightly crinkling diaper under my bum. She smiled at me with a slight tinge of pity as she knelt down at my feet and gently lifted my ankles, for I was still just about small enough for her to perform this one hand, while softly patted the perfumed powder generously around my diaper area. Finally, she laid me down again and pulled the front through my legs, the plastic fringes tickling my inside legs as they went, and pulling up firmly to avoid any leaks she taped the sides tightly across my middle. After standing me upright she ran her finger all around each of the leg bands and when she was satisfied she patted me on the bottom as mothers seem to be want to do with there newly diapered babies. As I was finally put into my pyjamas I was told that penalties would be severe if the diaper was tampered with, for this was before the days of refastenable tapes, but how they expected me to use the loo on the rare occasion that I did wake up in time I don't know. By rights I was allowed at this point in the evening to go downstairs for a bedtime snack and a story on the sofa but I was not just ready to face my siblings in such a degrading state (my pyjama bottoms would not come up over the top of the diaper so it was clearly exposed each time my top lifted up). Besides every step I took reminded with a rustle of the bulk between my legs so I opted for an early night and climbed into bed. As I lay there in the light coming in through the door from the landing I explored the new garment and cried myself to sleep.