I'm home alone today because I don’t have school and my mom is at work. I love diapers and stuff, and I get to wear them when no one is home. I still wet the bed most of the time, but that’s cool because I like it, and I hope I never stop. Mom gets me diapers to wear to bed, so I have Attends right now. I love to wet without diapers, too. This morning when I woke up my diaper was really wet. I was only wearing a tee-shirt with it, and it was all yellow and saggy. I love looking in the mirror when I first get up and my diaper is wet and yellow. I got really hard feeling it and looking at it in the mirror but I want to play all day so I didn’t do anything. I took my diaper off and put on some white boxer-briefs and jeans. I already had to pee when I woke up, then I started drinking Mountain Dews. I held it until I had to go so bad that I had to hold myself to keep from going. Then I let go in my pants in the kitchen. I love wetting my pants out in the house because it seems so much more embarrassing than doing it in my room or the bathroom. I like holding it until I have an accident, too. I wanted to wear my wet pants a long time, but I also wanted to do lots of other stuff so I took them off and hung them and my underwear up to dry in my closet. Now my underwear are dry and they look all yellow and smell like dried pee. I love the smell of dry pee, and love underwear with pee stains on them. I always feel really embarrassed when I see them because it shows that I wet my pants. I wish sometimes that I could leave them out where someone would see them. Sometimes I put them back on and wear them under my pants and that keeps me hot all day. After I took off my wet pants and stuff I put on another pair of white boxer briefs and lay down in my bed till I had to pee again. Then I just lay on my stomach on my bed and let it go and pretending like I was wetting my bed in my sleep with out a diaper on. It made me feel really ashamed which made me feel really horny, too. My mattress is rubber-coated which is great and I was so hard that I started humping it through my wet underwear and sheets. I didn’t want to cum because I still wanted to play a lot more but I couldn’t stop and finally rolled over and just jacked off in my underwear. Even after that I was still horny so I took off my underwear and left them on the bed and put on one of my diapers and a pair of coveralls. I love wearing coveralls with a diaper, it’s hot. I drank another Mountain Dew and watched TV in the living room until I had to pee really bad again. It doesn’t take me very long usually and I still hadn’t really ever emptied my bladder all the way since I got up. I sat on the couch and held it as long as I could, pretending that I was on the bus and had to wait until I got home. I even squeezed myself hard to keep dry but when I couldn’t hold it anymore I wet a whole lot in my diaper but I managed to stop before I was empty or I leaked or anything. I wore the wet diaper until I started to have to pee again, then I wanted to do something else. I took the diaper off and put underwear on again, another pair of white boxer-briefs, it’s all I wear. I got a Mountain Dew and sat at the kitchen table and pretended I was I school and had to go but the teacher wouldn’t let me and I had to try to hold it till class was out. I held it almost an hour then just pissed in my pants on purpose anyways. It was really humiliating and hot to pretend that I'd wet my pants in class on purpose but pretended it was an accident. I pretended I had to walk throughout the school to the nurse’s office in my wet pants, and that she made me put a diaper on. I didn’t have to go at all when I put it on because I'd already done it all in my pants, so now I'm sitting here writing this wearing nothing but an Attends and I've pissed in it a little bit a couple of times while I was writing, and I'm so horny that I have to keep rubbing myself through it, now I'm about to wet in it again, and then I'm going to jack off in it and probably wear it wet and sticky while I clean everything else up and get ready to take a shower.
Part 2 (added 11/18/07) I finally have a whole day home alone again. It’s Saturday so no school and mom has to work! I'm writing this a little at a time while I'm 'playing'. So anyway I woke up this morning about 10:00 and like always my diaper was wet. I used to always wear attends youth, but now I wear Select small/med so that’s what I had on when I woke up. They're all white, and I like that because you can always see when they are wet and usually see that they are yellow with pee, too. I usually just sleep in a diaper and tee-shirt so when I get up the first thing I do is look at myself in the mirrored doors on my closet and see myself in my diaper. That always gets me hard and usually I take care of it in the shower after I get my diaper off, or on weekends I do it right in my wet night diaper and then take it off. Today though, I have the house to myself so no way am I going to get off so soon! I wore just my night diaper around while I got a Mountain Dew and stuff and then I had to pee so I went in my diaper. I guess it was too wet though already and it leaked down my legs and on the kitchen floor so I had to take it off. I almost put on another diaper then but I decided to get dressed for a while instead and read stories on the internet or something for a while. I put on white boxer briefs and jeans just with socks and my tee-shirt and spend a couple of hours surfing the web in my room. I had a couple more Mt Dews and then when I got up to get another one about half an hour ago I was in the kitchen and realized that I had to pee. I was standing there thinking about all the things I could do, but I really had to pee and I was holding it and then I just decided that I'd do it right there. It was kind of exciting to just let it go without any planning or anything, just like having a real accident and I had to go so bad that as soon as I stopped trying to hold it I had an urge and then I was wetting my pants. At first I was peeing hard in my underwear and jeans but then I made myself stop so that my bladder wouldn’t be empty. I still wet so much that the crotch of my pants was completely soaked and I was wet past the knee down both legs. Sometimes I love staging an accident and wetting my pants and I like to pretend that I did it somewhere that I can’t change right away and have to wear my wet cloths around. So I got a Mt Dew and went back to my room still wearing my wet jeans and started looking here and then started writing, so right now I'm sitting here in my wet jeans and underwear and I've been hard almost the whole time! I can smell the pee in my pants whenever I move and my underwear are all stuck to me and since I've been sitting down the back of my jeans are wet now too just like I peed my pants somewhere and then had to sit in them in the car to ride home. I'm starting to have to pee again, and I'm thinking about just doing it in my pants again like I couldn’t wait till I got home and had to wet myself again in the car, but since my pants are already wet that’s not as much fun. I think I'll put on a diaper instead and then pretend that I was made to because I wet my pants and that I have to use it and wear it as punishment. I'll be back... I took off my wet pants and underwear together and left them on the floor right here where I can see them and remember that I had an 'accident' in my pants. I can see part of the front of my white underwear and its all yellow with my pee almost up to the waist band. I got a diaper and laid down on the edge of my bed to put it on. (That’s how I almost always put my diaper on, laying on the edge of my bed with my legs over the edge.) I can watch myself doing it in the mirrors on my closet, and sometimes I pretend that I'm watching someone else putting their diaper on, or that someone is diapering me. I decided I didn’t like the idea of being punished for my accident... I don’t really want to be punished, just to be embarrassed I guess. Anyway I changed my mind and decided that I was getting a diaper on because I was going on a long car trip and had to wear it since I'd wet my pants the last time I went on a long trip like that because I couldn’t hold it long enough. I put on some track pants over my diaper cause they would be easy to get off to change in a car (which I have done) and left my tee-shirt on. So now I'm writing this pretending that I'm in the car in a diaper and I don’t know if I'll have to use it or not or whatever. When I was younger sometimes I really did wear diapers in the car like that. I know everyone says stuff like that in the stories and whatever, but I really did a bunch of times until I was about 11 or 12. Not like every time we went somewhere, and my mom never diapered me herself after I was about 8 years old, and I never rode in the car with just a diaper on or anything like that but I was told to put one on sometimes and I did and lots of those times I ended up going in my diaper because I had to go and there wasn’t a good place to stop. I used to have to go pretty often, and sometimes just all of a sudden I had to go a lot worse, not like the normal build up to having to go bad. I don’t really do that anymore, and even when I do I can hold it a long time even though it’s uncomfortable and I worry that I really will pee my pants but it doesn’t happen. The last time I was told to wear a diaper other than to bed I was 11 and we were going to visit my cousins about 4 hours away and a lot of it is over country roads where there aren’t many places to stop and go to the bathroom unless you do it on the side of the road. Mom reminded me that it was like that and said I might want to wear a diaper and bring one for the trip home. I didn’t really want to because I was afraid my cousins would find out but I also don’t like having to go and having to hold it and being afraid that I'll wet my pants so I put one on under my cloths before we left, and mom put an extra in her purse for me to put on to wear back. We stopped once on the way and I peed in the bathroom there and I was dry when we got to my cousins house. I took my diaper off in the bathroom first thing and left it on the sink with my mom right outside the bathroom door like she needed to go next. When I came out she went right in and put my diaper in her purse so no one would see it. Before we left to go home mom went to the bathroom and left my 2nd diaper on the sink and I went in right behind her and put it on. On the way home about half way there mom said that she didn’t need to stop but that she would if I needed too. I had to go but not bad or anything and it was late and I was tired and I told mom I didn’t really have to. She said that I probably should, but since I had a diaper on just in case it was fine if I wanted to wait till we got home. After a while I couldn’t hold it and told mom that I really had to go, she said that she'd find someplace for me to go, or I could do it in my diaper if I wanted (or had to) since we were going to be home soon anyway. I said I'd just try to wait but I ended up using my diaper. Since then I haven’t worn a diaper outside the house except to bed when we've stayed all night somewhere, but I have had 1 accident in the car when I was 12. We were pulling in the driveway when I couldn’t hold it anymore and wet my pants. If we'd been farther from home I'd have peed in a bottle or something but we were so close I tried to wait instead. Mom wasn’t mad or anything and since it was just us it wasn’t that big of a deal. I'd still like to be able to wear diapers for trips and stuff just because it would sometimes be easier and I wouldn’t have to be afraid of having an accident but now I'd just be embarrassed to tell mom I wanted to wear one and I'm not sure what she would say if I wore one and she found out. I don’t think she'd be mad, but she might get worried or take me to the doctor or something if I told her that I was having trouble holding it or something. My cousin who is a year younger than me told me one time that when he was 12 he had to go real bad in his parents van and he was holding himself to keep from having an accident till they could stop. He said that he got hard from doing it and was rubbing himself to help him hold it but that he finally actually came in his pants then immediately lost control and peed in them too. He was real embarrassed just telling me, but we were sort of talking about jacking off anyway, and he knows that I still wet the bed so I wouldn’t make fun or tell anyone or anything. He doesn’t wet the bed and as far as I know he doesn’t like to 'play' like I do. I've been trying to recreate his accident ever since he told me but I've never been able to get the timing right so that when I came I lost control and peed at the same time, I'm always still able to hold it, though every time I try it I still let go and pee as soon as I can. The last couple of months I've been waking up dry more and more often. Until last year I was wet every single night. Then I started having a dry night just every once in a while. Now though I'm dry probably 1 night a week or more so I guess I'm finally outgrowing wetting my bed. In a big way I don’t want to wet the bed on accident all the time, but I know that if/when I get completely dry at night I wont be able to get diapers anymore so I always pee in my diaper in the morning when I wake up dry before I even get out of bed and I haven’t ever told my mom that I've had a dry night. If I have to I'll fake it every night until I move out on my own and can get diapers for myself and wear them whenever I want. I would so hate to not have diapers it’s worth not sleeping over or whatever just to have them. Recently I've been putting a diaper on when I get home from school and wearing it till mom gets home from work. A couple of times I've worn it almost all evening and wet in it a couple of times without her even knowing I had it on. It’s scary but exciting that I might get caught and I feel really naughty for doing it, which is also cool. The only problem is that I'm using too many diapers and I'm afraid that mom will eventually ask why, since I should only need one a day. Luckily she buys them like 120 at a time and doesn’t keep track of when she bought them last. When I get down to like 20 left I just tell her and she orders more and they get delivered. 120 should last 4 months, but allowing for a few to get torn or whatever it’s really like 3 months and 3 weeks. I kept track and the last case lasted only about 3 months but mom didn’t even mention it so I guess I'm cool. I don’t think she really counts or even pays attention to it at all. Anyway now I'm starting to have to pee again. I'm pretending that I'm in the car and I'm looking around and it’s a pretty deserted stretch of highway with no likely looking places to stop. I embarrassed to say that I have to go and don’t want to have to get and try to go beside the road with a diaper on so I'm just trying to hold it, but it’s getting worse. I'm squeezing my legs together to help me hold it and starting to fight in my seat because it’s harder to hold it if I sit still. I'm looking and there still isn’t anyplace at all to stop. Now I'm having to grab myself once in a while to keep from having an accident, I'm getting scared that I won’t be able to make it. I've really gotta pee bad now! Now I almost can’t turn loose of my self, I'm pinching it through my pants and diaper and cant hold still even for a second. I know I'm going to have and accident now but I'm still trying to hold it because I'm ashamed. I can’t wait anymore I'm peeing in my diaper now and I can’t stop I'm peeing so hard but I'm trying my best to stop it before I leak or something. Oh god I really had an accident, it's a good thing I was wearing a diaper or my pants would be wet and everyone would know I peed myself. My diaper is really wet and hot (and I'm really hot too). I'm so hard I feel like I'm going to poke through my diaper! I'm imagining sitting here in a wet diaper in the back of the car going down the road with my shame all to myself, and knowing that I'll have to sit in my pee till we get home and I can get this diaper off. Now I can’t stop touching myself because it feels too good. I really wanted to play longer but I can’t stop and I'm going to get my self off in my diaper right here at my desk! Oh wow I just cam so hard! I'm soaked and super sticky and gotta go get cleaned up. I'll write again soon!