| Title: | Handicapped Cousin | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Name: | Valerie | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Email: | not given | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Gender: | Female | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Current Age: | 20 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Whom Story is About: | My male cousin | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Posting Date: | 12/06/09 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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| Summary: | My cousin Luke was handicapped from birth. His right arm only goes to the elbow and is deformed. His left arm is fully developed but much shorter than it should be. His eyesight is terrible and he started wearing hearing aids when he was very little. He is 15 today but only about 5' tall and slender. I'm 4 years older than him and he has always worn diapers and still does today. I'm not sure if he was ever potty trained but know he can't control himself and still wets at night and often during the day. He has so many things wrong with him physically I always felt sorry for him as did the rest of our family and friends. He is sick often with colds and still gets migraines often. He doesn't eat well and is constantly constipated. The amazing thing is that he is very smart and a wiz on computers. He goes to a special school and is always the smartest in his class. | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Deekerian Score (20 is max.) [?]: | 12 (60%) |
The first time I ever babysat for him alone was when I was 14. He wasn't quite 10 at the time and I did know ahead of time I would have to change his diapers. I was used to seeing him in diapers all the time but had never seen my aunt or anyone changes him or give him a bath. He always wore two diapers and three with plastic pants at bedtime. I always lived nearby and saw him several times a week while growing up. I was watching him overnight and my aunt showed me how to change him the first time. I was surprised that he didn't seem to be embarrassed when she took his diaper off and wiped him with the baby wipes. She then held his legs up and powdered his bottom and privates and I could even see his anus. I had never seen a boy that age naked before. I remember thinking how humiliating it must be for him to have a young girl see him so exposed even though I am his cousin. He didn't seem to be upset that I was standing there seeing him that way and I assume he was so accustomed to being in that situation that it no longer bothered him. It was Saturday morning and I would be alone with him until about noon on Sunday. An hour or so after we were alone I was watching TV with Luke when he told me he wet himself. The dressing table was in his bedroom so we went in and he just laid down on it. I think I was the one who was embarrassed that first time. I changed him the same way his mother had and for the first time in my life touched a boy�s penis and testicles. I changed him two more times during the day and after dinner I new I had to give him a bath and make him go to bed before 10pm. I filled the tub for him and called him into the bathroom where he just stood and let me unpin his diapers. He got in the tub and mostly washed himself with his left hand as much as he could. Then it occurred to me that his mother never told me what to do for his bath. All the sudden he just handed me the soap and I told him right away I didn't know what I was supposed to do. He was very matter of fact about it and said to wash his back and even handed me the wash cloth. At one point he actually stood up in the tub and I just washed his back and rear. He turned around facing me and allowed me to wash between his legs. He just stood there as I pushed back his foreskin and washed his penis. That was the first time I realized how short his left arm was and that he couldn't really do it himself. He even bent over slightly for me to wash inside his rear. I changed him one more time that night and put three diapers and the plastic pants on him just before bedtime. A number of times he even told me how to do things and never once complained about anything. The next morning after breakfast I only changed him once and his parents were home by 11am. They seemed to be pleased that everything went well and Luke must have told them I was nice to him, which I was. His mother asked me if he pooped at all and when I said no she mentioned something about suppositories that he needed at times. I went home not thinking much about it. I started watching him more often after that and sometimes for a whole weekend if they went away. The more I watched him the more they trusted me to care for him an entire weekend. My aunt was glad to have me babysit for him especially since she knew my mother was nearby in case of an emergency. If my aunt and uncle were away for the weekend they would always call several times making sure everything was ok and always left a phone number for me to call them if needed. About the third or fourth time I watched him on a weekend she called one afternoon and asked if he had pooped. He hadn't so she told me the suppositories were in the refrigerator. This I never expected and I just told Luke his mom wanted me to give him one of them. He didn't seem the least bit concerned and came into the kitchen as I got it. He just stood there and let me take his diapers off and told me I was supposed to sit down. When I sat down on the chair he just laid over my lap. I was astonished at how uninhibited he was letting me do this to him. He just let me spread his cheeks apart and put it in his rectum. A short time later he told me he had to poop and I just followed him to the bathroom. I took his diaper off and he sat on the toilet right away and had a bowel movement as I stood there. He was almost 11 then and I couldn't believe it didn't embarrass him especially when he bent over for me to wipe him. I knew my mother took care of him over the years and also he had many babysitters and one of my older girl cousins watched him also. I guess he was so used to being taken care of like this that being seen naked didn't embarrass or humiliate him. As intelligent as he was his parents and everyone treated him like a toddler all the time. He never seemed to object to anyone seeing him in diapers. He sometimes would wear a shirt or pajama top but was always bare-chested in hot weather. The only time he wore any pants was if he was in school or his parents took him out somewhere. Some of my girlfriends would come over often and I used to ask him if he wanted me to dress him or put pants on him but he didn't even mind them seeing him in the diapers. The odd thing is he never objected to them seeing me change him. One weekend I was sick and he allowed my girlfriend Maryann to change and bathe him. One other time he let me put a suppository in him when Maryann and another girl were standing next to us watching. I knew he liked Maryann and he let her take care of him the way I do after that. I think he was 12 the first time I saw him get an erection and I was surprised how big it got. I do admit at the time that I enjoyed seeing him naked and could see how his body was changing. He was never circumcised and I was amazed when he got an erection the way the head of his penis came out. He started getting pubic hair but still had no problem with me or anyone for that matter seeing him naked or in his diapers. My girlfriends and I talked about him often but none of them ever laughed at him and they all felt sorry for him. They did like to watch me change him and over time a few watched me give him a bath. They always said something to me afterwards how I pushed his foreskin back to wash him and laugh about it. The older he got the more often he would get an erection but I never said anything to him about it. It seemed to always happen when I touched him either by wiping him off or putting the powder on him. Every time I gave him a bath he would get hard especially when I cleaned his penis. His left arm was so short that the only way he could touch his penis was when he was sitting down. For the longest time I wondered if he masturbated and one day I did see semen in his diaper when I changed him. One weekend I was doing wash and when I looked in the living room at him I could see him sitting in the chair with his hand down in his diaper. I stood behind the dining room doorway and watched, knowing he was masturbating. I actually felt sorry for him and knew he didn't have much to look forward to in his life. I had never had sex at that time but did masturbate myself frequently. I knew he was at the age where boys masturbate a lot and realized he could only do it when he sat upright because of the length of his arm. Very seldom was he ever left naked alone so I started to notice how many times there was semen in his diaper. Here was a young boy like that with all these physical problems starting to understand what sex was. He even had trouble walking sometimes and his one leg was twisted inward. He would be in his room often and a few times I saw he had porn on his computer. He would shut it off right away if he heard me coming in and I never told him I saw it. I don't know why I did this but one night after giving him a bath I took him back into his room to diaper him. His leg was hurting him that day so I put him in his chair naked and just handed him a towel. He had an erection the whole time I bathed him that day and even when we got to his room it was still not totally soft. I just told him I was doing wash and would be back to diaper him in 20 minutes or so leaving him naked in the chair. I closed the door when I walked out but stood there for a few minutes knowing he was going to masturbate, which I am sure he did. After that each time I watched him I left him naked and alone on the chair with his computer. A few times I peeked in at him and could see he had downloaded porn. His back was to me but I knew he was masturbating. I never just walked in on him and always either knocked or told him I was coming in just so he had time to turn off the porn. I guess I thought it would embarrass him if I saw him looking at the porn or saw him masturbating or perhaps tell his mother. As time went on more and more I could see how he would look at my body and especially the way he looked at Maryann who is very pretty and built nice. She noticed it also and saw him get erections lots of times when either she or I changed or bathed him. We talked about it and joked around with each other about it. I would kid around with her and tell her every time I mentioned her name, Luke would get hard. I was only kidding her about it but knew Luke really did like her. By this time Luke was 13 and Maryann had changed him and even bathed him quite a few times. She also watched me give him a suppository a number of times and Luke had no qualms about her seeing him naked. As a matter of fact 3 or 4 of my other girlfriends had also seen him naked over the last years and he never once ever complained or objected to it. Over this time I took care of him a few times a month and many times for a whole weekend. My mother takes care of him at times and I often wonder if he gets an erection when she bathes him or changes him, but never asked her. It sort of started as just joking around but Maryann and I began wearing our bathing suits around Luke. The first time he saw Maryann in her bikini his eyes almost popped out. We both laughed about it but not in front of him. I think we started doing it because we felt sorry for him or maybe selfishly to tease him. Both of us liked to see him get and erection although we never said anything about it to him. On real hot days the two of us would go around the house in our bra and panties but only on the weekends his parents were away. We never did if I knew my mother was stopping over. He never took his eyes off us especially Maryann. She even wore a thong sometimes and as obvious as it was we never mentioned anything about his erection. Each weekend I watch him, Maryann usually comes over the whole afternoon and most of the time has dinner with us and doesn't leave until after his bath. Sometimes she stays overnight. She likes washing him and I know Luke likes it also. He gets hard almost as soon as I take his diapers off. As bad as I might be Maryann is worse and gets him to bend over putting him in the most humiliating positions at times. She admits she does this just to look at his privates but Luke has yet to ever complain or resist her. She sometimes washes his penis and scrotum without a wash cloth using only her hands and has told me how she likes moving his foreskin back and seeing the head of his penis. If he doesn't have an erection buy this time he certainly does after she touches him. We both smile at each other because Luke just closes his eyes and lets her do whatever she says or does. The last few times he needed a suppository he let Maryann put it in him as he willing laid over her lap. It astounds both of us when we discuss his lack of modesty and neither of us can understand why he is not humiliated by what he allows us to do. He has only pooped in his diaper one time over the years. When he does poop he does it in front of me and often Maryann is there as he just sits on the toilet most of the time talking to us. I always wipe him but he even allows Maryann to do it. It�s hard for us to comprehend how he can let us see him, in what we consider, the most humiliating and degrading situations. His penis is only a couple inches when it is soft but when he has an erection we both agree it is at least 5 or 6 inches. As many times as he sees us in our bathing suits or bra and panties we have never let him see us naked. Maryann is built much better than I so most of his attention is on her and she is the one who wears a thong sometimes. He just turned fifteen last month and you would think he would be more aware of his situation as he gets older. I don't think he will get any taller and is still babied by his parents and grandparents. I don't think anyone is aware that he is a teenager and they don't treat him as such. When I told my mother he was 15 she admitted she didn�t realize he was that old already. His entire existence is about TV, video games and his computer. Sadly, I guess there is very little else to amuse him. I know he looks at porn often but don't think his parents are aware of it. He acts very immature especially around his parents and I think he actually enjoys the attention and being treated like a child. I'm not sure if it is a fetish at this time since he does have to be in diapers all the time. I asked him several times over the years if it bothered him and he did tell me that he wished he could control his bladder. He said several times he would like to be able to wear regular underwear but knows that he can't. A few times I saw him crying but only when he thought he was alone. He often tells me what he wished he could do and most of it pertains to sports, which he can never do. His parents do take him to ball games and other sporting events and lately I have taken him to the mall with me. People stare at him lots of times but I don't think it bothers him that much and if it does he never admits it. If his leg is real bad certain days I push him in a stroller his parents have. He would rather walk but sometimes can't. Maryann and I are both in college now and she doesn't come over as often as before. I can tell Luke is disappointed when she doesn't come over just by the expression on his face. Nothing has really changed and he is still always in diapers. He doesn't look much older than he did when I first started watching him. He has very little chest hair but all his pubic hair has grown in. I watch him one weekend a month now and sometimes just at night. He still has no problem with me seeing him naked and still gets erections often. I have to laugh sometimes because he asks me to leave him naked in his room after I give him a bath. I just smile and tell him I'll be back in a half hour, knowing full well he wants to masturbate. I thought about doing it to him and even talked to Maryann about it but we both decided not to. When I bathe him I often soap up his penis and scrotum to purposely get him hard but stop short of masturbating him. When Maryann does come for a night or weekend I always let her give him the bath and change him often. We still can't believe how he never gets embarrassed by it and how childish he is. I suppose since he has always been babied and in diapers all these years he has lost or never had any modesty about it. Its mind boggling to both me and Maryann that he is so calm and vulnerable around us. Almost every weekend that I watch him he has to get a suppository to be able to poop. Its always done right in the kitchen I suppose because of how his mother always did it there. Even at 15 he just lets me unpin his diapers then lays over my lap. If Maryann is here I let her do it and he is equally uninhibited with her and just goes over her lap. I can't imagine any 15 year old not being totally mortified and equally so when we wipe him after he does poop. He rarely has an erection when this is done but has twice that I can remember. We still let him see us in our bathing suits but very seldom in our underwear. In the evenings I just wear a t-shirt and panties and Maryann does the same if she stays overnight. We both admitted to each other that seeing him get hard has aroused us sometimes. We still have never said anything to him about his erections but sometimes he just says "sorry". He may be handicapped but I know he has the sexual feelings of a normal 15 year old. I think it did embarrass him when he first started getting the erections but doubt very much if it bothers him now. My aunt never asks me any questions about him but I know by now she probably has seen him get hard or perhaps must know he masturbates. He is really a nice kid but has very few friends and I dread to think about his future. I don't know how much longer I will take care of him but so far have never refused if my aunt asked me to. She knows Luke likes me and also knows Maryann comes over. She never asked and I never told her that Maryann does all these things also. I don't suppose Luke has told her either and I never discuss much about it with my aunt or even my mother. I think he is babied to much by his parents and perhaps that�s the reason he seems so much younger than he is. They do everything for him and I can tell they are devastated by his handicap. The worst part is when he gets the bad migraines that sometimes last for days. He has been to so many doctors over the years but there seems to be nothing they can do about it. I still enjoy watching him so far and do confess that I like seeing him naked and even touching him. I probably shouldn't feel that way but can't help it. I told a few girls at college about him and how I have to take care of him. They all seem to think how nice I am and some don't understand how I can do all the things I do. They are especially amazed when I tell them about the suppositories or how I wipe him after he poops. They sometimes laugh when I tell them how I wash his privates and pull back his foreskin and many tell me I should be a nurse. I never admit to them that I enjoy seeing him naked and certainly never tell them it arouses me at times. I never even told Maryann, but most weekends I watch him I masturbate at least one time thinking about it. And I never mention that Maryann and I let him see us in our bra and panties or tell them how we tease him sometimes. They think I am a saint for taking care of him but I also do it for selfish reasons.
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