| Title: | Growing Up Confused | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Name: | Josh | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Email: | [email protected] | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Gender: | Male | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Current Age: | 15 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Whom Story is About: | Myself | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
| Posting Date: | 08/09/09 | |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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| Deekerian Score (20 is max.) [?]: | 5 (25%) |
I started to like wearing diapers when I was about 4. I used to go take my sister�s doll diapers and put them on under her bed. My mom caught me on a few occasions asking me if I wanted to be a baby again, each time I replied no. She would take them away from me and then just be on her way. I didn�t really mind but forgot about them until I was about eight. I started to want them again because I would walk through Wal- Mart or other stores and see them and just be curious. To be quite honest I used to take diapers from stores and wear them at home. I felt bad about stealing but I really wanted them. Around the time that I was nine I started to get weird feelings about them and that�s when I started to masturbate. I always felt bad about wearing diapers afterwards, or ashamed, and I still do lots of the time. But I still can�t replace the feeling of wearing them with anything else. When I turned probably 12 I think I started to be a little attracted to boys. Not a lot but a little. Like I would have thoughts from time to time like oh he�s cute or if a girl was talking about another boy sometimes I would think I wouldn�t date him or that�s a good choice he would be a nice boyfriend. Don�t get me wrong I�m not gay, I don�t have a problem with people being gay� but imp not. I�ve thought maybe imp bi at times but I�m still very very veryyyy confused. Nowadays I think I�m more into guys than I was before but I don�t think I would date one. I want to have kids later in life that are mine, not some other person�s, and I want to have a wife. But right now I�m in high school and what I do now is what matters. I have only had sex once and that was with a boy my age. And although I like women I want to have sex with guys, but I do want to have sex with girls to. I think that now in my present state I don�t like guys anymore. I would love to have a boy diaper and have fun with me. I usually wear disposables because they're the most comfy. I pee in them a lot but sometimes go #2. The thing about writing this is I am kind of scared no one will talk to me, I mean, I�m doing this to meet more people that are like me in the sense that we wear diapers. But I don�t know if you�ll want to respond and that�s what scares me. I really hope you guys do talk to me no matter what. Either way, thanks for reading this.