I Still Need Diapers But I Like Them Now Summary: I wet the bed and wear diapers for that, but I'm beginning to like them. My name is Tiger (not my real name, but I like Tiger Woods. I don’t want my brother or parents finding out I like diapers.). I am 12 years old now. I live in New England with my parents and brother Bobby. He’s 15. I wear diapers, Bobby doesn’t. I wet the bed, I started to again a lot when I was 6 and was put back in diapers all the time at night. I didn’t wet much between 4 and 6, but sometimes I did. My parents kept me out of diapers to train me not to wet, but it really didn’t work. I wet the bed a few times a week, but we kept trying. It took about a year to give up and go back to diapers at night. I mean, we tried everything, from not drinking anything, to getting up in the middle of the night to pee, to an alarm thing, but I still wet the bed a few times a week. I really wanted to not wet, but couldn’t help it. When I started school we gave up because I needed to sleep and I think my family did, too. I didn’t even want diapers cause that would mean I failed, but once I got back into them I was relieved. My parents got me some small Attends. Pull ups or Goodnites were never mentioned, I don’t know why, but they like to be safe or not take chances. I kept the plastic sheet on the bed, under the mattress cover, and still do. I didn’t like the diapers, or thought I shouldn’t. My parents and brother kept saying that it was better to be in diapers at night and told me that I would sleep better and be more comfortable. We talked about going back to diapers a lot, so it was nothing like a surprise. I did feel better and safer in them, and I could sleep good, too. It’s always better waking up in a dry bed, not having the mess, or the smell, or the laundry. They showed me on the internet that a bunch of kids my age still wet the bed, so that was OK. My brother was told to keep quiet about it, and he did. I used Attends and Abenas. My Mom or Dad would diaper me at night at first. I was around 7 or 8, I can’t remember, when I was able to pull the tapes tight enough to diaper myself. My parents would still change my diaper when they wanted to, or when I asked, but now they won’t even if I ask. That’s OK, because I don’t want them to. I have been totally in charge of my diapers for over a year now. It didn’t take long before Mom got me some plastic pants to wear over the diapers to help with the leaks. I sleep on my side so leaks have always been a problem. The plastic pants helped some, but still leaked sometimes. I just wore diapers at night and it was no big deal. All my family knows and some friends. I got some family who also wet as kids, and that helps it be OK for me, too. Mom tried cloth diapers on me for a while, and I still use them sometimes, but most of the time I’m in disposables. I know I should wear cloth more, but don’t like feeling wet when I’m wet. I wet myself most nights, that is, I am wet when I wake up, and then I usually add to it. I am almost never dry when it comes time to take off the diaper in the morning. I knew I shouldn’t wet on purpose but it feels good, and I’m in diapers anyhow. If my parents think I might not need them and I still might, they might take them away. Nobody much asks me if I’m wet, I guess they just figure I will be. My parents let me take care of my diapers now. I can choose what I want and they pay for it. My waist size is 26 inches. I can wear a small Abena but started wearing one size bigger because they leak less and hold more. There’s more padding, and the wings wrap most of the way around to the back, keeping the pee inside the diaper when I sleep on my side. I still use plastic pants, but they’re nylon, covered in vinyl and don’t tear. Now I wear some pants we get from Babykins in Canada that have terry cloth inside them. I got some small diaper stuffers from Abena, too, and use them sometimes if I put on a diaper early at night. I sleep good in these, and don’t have to worry about leaks anymore. Still, I’m in between sizes so we buy both small and medium diapers now. I wear cloth diapers sometimes, but have to wash them myself, like I have to take charge of my disposable diapers, too. I got some prefold diapers with pins, which I use with plastic pants. I still put the terry cloth lined pants over these, because they will leak sometimes, too. This year I got some flat diapers, the kind you have to fold yourself. We get the prefolds and plastic pants, and the lined pants, from Babykins. The flat diapers come from Angel Fluff. I got both birdseye and gauze kinds. I like these because I can fold them different ways or use them as stuffers. I like to fold some in a triangle and use only one pin to hold them on. The Abena and Molicare diapers have weak tapes, so I use some adhesive tape over them. I have both the super and the super-plus sizes. I can change a diaper in less than two minutes, during TV commercials, say. The best thing is the lined pants. Regular plastic pants might catch a leak, but sooner or later it will leak out of the plastic pants, too, there’s nothing to catch it. The lined pants catch all my leaks, and I’ll leak into them maybe twice a week. It’s never much, but enough to make the terry cloth damp, and I’d rather it be inside my pants than in bed or on the couch or chair. If you’re big enough have your parents get you some of these. Their smallest size is waist size 28. The polyester ones are better than the vinyl, they won’t tear. I use an adult small; it fits over the diapers OK. I’ll get some mediums next year. They last a long time. It’s great not to have to worry about leaks. I mean, without them the diaper is better than nothing, it keeps most pee inside, but with them there’s nothing to worry about. I like feeling very safe and secure in them. It’s so good not to have to worry, not even a little, it makes a huge difference. Just make sure they are big enough to cover everything and that the diaper is tucked up inside the terry cloth pant. I have never, ever, leaked in bed or on anything else wearing these over my diapers! I have four of them, which lasts a week, easy. I wash and dry them separate, so I want to do this on the weekend. Four makes a good load. With some baggy kind of pants, I can even wear pants over them and a diaper, for when I have to leave the house in diapers. Like for car trips or on the plane. It’s funny, but I can change standing up now, I just lean against a wall to hold the back of the diaper up before I get it taped on. I have changed in public places and even a couple of times in the airplane bathroom, too. I wear a larger shirt, too, and leave it un-tucked. It’s cool because nobody can tell I’m in diapers. I started staying in diapers more during the day last year. On weekends I sometimes stay in my diapers until noon, but my parents are OK with this. I always wear a diaper when I take a nap, and now I stay in my diaper longer after the nap. I sometimes put one on early at night now, when watching TV. I do that in case I fall asleep on the couch. I know I shouldn’t but I have been peeing more in my diapers on purpose. I even wet on purpose during the day sometimes. I have been thinking about wetting my pants on purpose so I can wear diapers during the day. My control has gotten worse this year, so it would be easy to do, but I don’t want to have to wear diapers all the time, just when I want. I know that if I wet my pants a few times I’d be in diapers during the day. I kind of want that, but maybe it would be hard to change my mind, or my parents’ minds. I might have to wear them to school and everybody would find out, not just my friends. I’m not supposed to like diapers, I don’t think. And except when I first got put back into them I didn’t until now. Most of the time I just wore diapers and was OK with it, no big deal. I knew I needed them and so I wore them. Now I want to wear them, it’s different. Right now it’s only 6:30 and I’m in diapers. It’s still warm enough that I don’t need pants, but I have my lined plastic pants on over the Abenas, too. It’s Sunday and I had a nap, and am watching TV, but I just wet and know I shouldn’t. I like to just relax and let it go, but this will weaken my bladder muscle, but it’s nice. It’s easy to relax so I pee all the time, because my bladder muscle is weak, but I don’t want to lose control all the time. My family doesn’t say anything, but I wonder what they think, if they know I like it, or even if they care that I do. I’ll wear this diaper until bedtime, then change into a dry one for bed. I’ll keep the same plastic pants on, though, unless they get damp, but I don’t think they will. I have a Super-plus on, not a Super. A lot of my online friends who wear diapers like them, too, and got the same questions. It’s cool that my parents let me take care of my diapers and bedwetting now. I like to be able to choose my diapers and wear them during the day sometimes. They say that this is a temporary thing, even if it lasts more years, so it’s no big deal, there’s nothing I can’t handle. But I feel guilty liking them sometimes. I play with myself in diapers, too, dry or wet, but wet is better. This feels so good I can’t help it, but maybe I shouldn’t do this, either. I’m sure it’s a reason I want to wear diapers now, and me and my friends think this is what they mean by fetish. I don’t know what to do, maybe I’ll not wet any more on purpose during the day. It doesn’t matter at night, though, because I wet, not on purpose, 5 times a week, about. My other family members who wet stopped around 18, and I will too. Until then I might as well make the best of it, it’s no big deal. Anyhow, this is my story. I’m still in diapers, and I like them now. I have learned how to manage my bedwetting and wetting so there are no problems, so it’s OK. My only problem is I have to decide what to do during the day, if I’m going to wear and wet diapers during the day, too. Maybe I’ll talk to my Dad, might even show him this story, or most of it. Thanks, it’s helped to get this out. Good luck.