"Disclaimer: This Story is all true to the best of my memories: It has nothing to do with other people names: It's just a reckon of my own experiences." The Babying of William The first time that I can remember about wanting to wear diapers was when I was 4 or 5. The night started like any Friday night did. The only thing that was different was that my best friend and his parents were over until really late. Around eight or nine I was sent to bed. Just after I went to my room I heard my best friend's mom send his dad to the store to pick something up. I later found out when Aaron walked into my room to sleep in my bed until his parents went home, that his dad went and bought some diapers. That is when I found out that my friend was a bedwetter. The next day was just like any Saturday went for me. All I did was play outside with Aaron. Now on Sunday my family and I was at Kmart in Tacoma, WA. While we were there we headed to a section of the store that was by the baby area. The next thing I knew I asked my mom if she could by me some diapers. After I asked that question she told me to just to go to the toy area. I went ahead and did as I was told not thinking of what I just asked her. About 15 minutes later my brother came and got me and said we were leaving. We headed towards the cashier and found mom just finishing paying for everything we came to get. I did notice, however that there was a box of Luvs diapers in the shopping cart as we headed towards the car. After we arrived home I was told to go play as my mom and brother put the things away. About two hours later I was called in for dinner. I was told during dinner that I was to stay inside for the rest of the night. Just after dinner was done and the kitchen cleaned up I was called into the living room and was asked by my mom why I wanted to wear diapers. I told my mom I liked the way Aaron was cared for by his parents and said I would like to be cared for by you when I was younger. To my surprise my mother understood and said she would care for me the same way when I was two and half. So she went and got the box of diapers and brought them into the living room and pulled one out and came over to me and picked me up off the couch and laid me on the floor. My mom then proceeded to speak in a soft soothing voice as she pulled off my pants and shorts. The next thing I knew my mom started to unfold the diaper and than raised my legs and bottom and slid the diaper under my bottom and then powdered me and brought the diaper up between my legs and taped it closed. After she finished diapering me she picked me up and took me over to her chair and started to rock me. The next thing I knew I was awoken by my brother during the night. I was having a bad dream. Which turned out to be about being beat by my dad when I was three while we lived in Seattle, WA. The reason my dad was beating me with his belt was because I knocked his beer off the table while I was playing with my toys. Just after being awakened by my brother, whose name is Roy, my mom came in and I started to cry. She knew right away that the dream had scared me very much. While I was crying she sat down on my bed and started to hold me and sing to me to try and calm me down. Just as she started to rock me she asked Roy who was about twenty- three at the time to get the supplies which turned out to be the changing supplies. About five minutes later he returned to my room carrying another diaper, a wash cloth, and a bottle of milk. My mom then laid me down on my back on my bed to change me. I had not even realized that during the dream that I used the diaper. After she changed me she continued to rock me and fed me the bottle of milk which helped calmed me down. The next thing I knew it was morning and woke up to a wet diaper from drinking the bottle of milk. Just after waking up and remembering the incident during the night I started to cry again. Out of nowhere my mother appeared and came to my bed and picked me up and started to sing and rock me again, and she said, "Don't worry, baby, mommy won't let daddy hurt you again." She than carried me into the living room and changed me into a fresh diaper. She then fed me breakfast and told me she was going to baby me for the whole week and was to use up the box of diapers. Years later she told me she did this for that week to make sure that I was over that terrible dream I had. During that week of being babied by my mother she played her part to the hilt. She fed me, bathed me, and evened played games with me. During one of the feeding sessions I refused to drink my bottle of milk. She tried to get me to drink the bottle for ten minutes and gave up. She then picked me up from the table and took me to the couch and sat me on her lap and told me that since I would not drink from my bottle that I would have to get my milk from the other source. The next thing I started to drink from her breast. I remember drinking for about ten minutes and fell asleep. I played my part of being the baby for that week and had no other ideas of wanting to wear diapers or a need to wear them until that plane crash that happened on my 15th birthday. Part 2. After that first experience of being babied by my mother for a week, I don't remember having any other thoughts about wanting to wear diapers, until the incident that occurred on my 15th birthday. It all stared on a warm sunny day in July around the 25th which is my birthday. I wanted to go on a fishing trip to Idaho, where my brother went the year earlier. So three of my friends and I booked a charter flight to Cascade, Idaho to spend the week fishing at Cascade Lake. During the week we were planning on spending their I arranged it so that my friends and I could stay at my brothers dad's house. I really do not remember how long the flight was, but we were I would say approximately forty miles away from Cascade airport when the crash occurred. The crash I am referring to happened about the time we were flying over a forest or wooded area on are way to the week of fishing at Cascade Lake, when out of nowhere a flight of birds appeared in front of us. I remember very vividly that the pilot tried everything to avoid the flight of birds but we were to close to them when they appeared. The next thing I knew was that we were going down those birds destroyed the propellers and the pilot could not keep the plane in the air. Part 3. The next thing I knew I woke up in a hospital, which I found out later was Harborview Trauma Hospital in Seattle, Wa. I was informed about the date and time. I was told it was September 20th and around 2:00 P.M.. I remember saying that I could not believe it and was thinking it was a dream. I was informed by the nurse that it was not a dream and that I was involved in a plane crash. I found out later just after the crash occurred, I was knocked unconscious and that I had pretty much destroyed my knees and that I also had some internal injuries as well. About a week after waking up in the hospital I was informed that during the crash the pilot and two of my friends who were good computer buddies of mine died in the crash. I was also informed a couple of days later that the only thing that saved my best friend and I was that at the time of the crash we were not that far from a town and that some eyewitnesses which turned out to be firefighters watched the crash happen, and rescued myself and Wade before the plane exploded into flames. The injuries that I suffered were my right knee was basically destroyed and that I had torn cartilage in my left knee, and the final injury was that I torn my bladder and nerves and bruised my kidney. While I was in a coma I had three surgery's to fix both knees and to fix the internal injuries I suffered in the crash. The reason I suffered so many injuries was just before the crash happened I took off my seat belt to get a better position in the seat and I was not able to get it back on before the crash so I went over the front seat during the crash that is how I suffered all the injuries I had. About two hours after the crash happened my family was informed of the crash. Just after my family was informed my brother and mom and the rest of the parents caught the next flight to Boise, Idaho and was met their by my brothers dad. The way all the parents found out about the crash was that Wade called them after being checked out at the local hospital and told them about the crash and that I was injured pretty seriously. I also found out about an hour before Wade called my brother's dad called and was concerned that if we left on time because we had not arrived yet. That call got all the parents worried that something was wrong. That is why they were ready to leave and catch the next plane because even before Wade called they had already made arrangements to fly to Boise on the next commercial airline to help find us because at the time of the flight the weather was fantastic so they immediately thought that we probably crashed. Part 4 After I was pulled out of the wreck the firefighters notice all my injuries and had me airlifted out of the crash site to the trauma hospital in Boise. During the time I was in the hospital in Boise my brother Roy who is an EMT (Emergency Medical Technician) worked out that I be flown to Harborview Medical Center in Seattle, WA which is about an hour from Olympia, WA where I live. When I learned about my knees I realized that my football career was over right their in the hospital. I had a promising career going, during my freshmen year I made the JV squad which is unheard of at that time. Just going into my sophomore year everyone expected me to make the Varsity Team and compete for the starting offensive tackle position which would have given me the chance to be seen be several scouts from several Ivy league Schools. This of course never happened because of that dam plane crash. Just after I awoke from my coma my brother and mother along with Wade's mother arrived to see how I was doing and to their surprise they found that I had awoken from my coma. Just after they arrived and I started realize what the nurse had told me that I was in a plane crash I started to cry because all the memories started to come back of the crash. Just then Michelle who is my best friends mother came over to me and started to comfort me because my mother has serious back problems which is caused by osteoprosious and could not hold me and comfort me like moms due when their child is hurt or shaken up. I just relaxed and cried because of this terrible experience while Michelle was holding me and trying to calm me down so they could tell me everything that had happened. Just as I started to relax, I noticed that I had a diaper on. I was still pretty upset so after realizing that I was wearing a diaper I started to cry again and I finally passed out in her arms. I woke up several hours later from passing out. All the parents were still in my room while I was sleeping and were all sad for me because of how terrible and frightening the experience was for me. I did however find it comforting to know that while I slept Michelle kept holding me in her arms to try and make me feel okay and nurtured which I was glad she was doing. After waking up I started to relax as my mother explained what happened and why I was wearing a diaper. I learned that when she explained I had damaged the nerves going to my bladder and had torn my bladder that I would have to wear diapers for a long time if not for the rest of my life. I spent the next week in the hospital to make sure that I regained some strength back and that their were not going to be any complications. While I spent the time in the hospital I found out that my school was informed and that I received several cards and that my room was decorated very much. One of the cards I read was the most touching of all of them when I found out that the football team was going to play the season for me which shocked me like you would never realize. This was because I was not the most popular student in school so I never expected such a honor being given to me. Part 5 The week was over and I was heading home I found out when I left the hospital that I was not heading home that I was going to spend the next two weeks at Wade's house so that I could gain all my strength and that being around my friend might help me deal with the changes in my life which was depressing me very much. On the way home though I asked my mother where my friends were buried and she told me at the local cemetery so I asked to be driven there before being driven to my best friends house. So my brother drove us to the cemetery and I asked them to pick me up in an hour or so and they understood why I wanted to be alone, I wanted to give my respect to my fallen friends. In about an hour later they came back and found me paying my final respects to both of my friends which were buried by each other and then I got in the car in crutches and then said I am ready to go. About twenty minutes later I arrived at wade's house which looked the exact same way I remembered it before we left for the fishing trip with one slight change the room I was going to stay in was the den they had. The den had a bed and a dresser and some changing supplies which Michelle informed me that she was going to take care of for me while I was their. The den used to be where wade used to do his homework and looked like a small office. The first day was very easy Michelle kept checking up on me and making sure I was doing OK. I remember about three hours before wade was to arrive home from school that I was still pretty weak from all the things I did during the morning so I fell asleep on the couch and slept for a couple of hours. All of a sudden I was awoken to the feel of a blanket being put around me and I asked what are you doing Michelle she said I wanted you to keep warm. I replied I am warm enough and probably should get up. Then I realized that the diaper I was wearing was very wet. I must have used it during the nap I took. Michelle noticed that I was wet and said to come with her and so I grab my crutches and followed here into the den and told me to lay down on the bed and she would change me. So I let her change me and than I went into the living room and watched some TV until Wade arrived home. About 2:00 the front door opened and Wade came in and was glad to see me. For the following of the day we played some Super Nintendo and watched a movie until dinner. For dinner we had some chicken and rice which was very good to me since I was eating hospital food for the last week and a half. For the next few days the routine was similar. On the Fourth day I was feeling pretty ill so I stayed in bed for the day and was cared for by Michelle like I was her own child. Now on the Fifth night was when I made the decision that I did not want to continue to live this life anymore. So just after dinner I was in the den while Wade was at School finishing some work on the play he was involved in. So about an hour of watching some TV, Michelle came in and ask me if everything was OK and I than asked her if she had some paper and envelops so I could write some letters and so she went and brought me four pieces of paper and four envelops and she than left me alone so I could write my letters in peace. So I wrote the letters one was to my mom and brother and the second was to my sister in Auburn, WA, and the third was to my other sister in California, and the last one was to Michelle. After writing all my letters I placed them next to my bed and grabbed the bottle of sleeping pills that was prescribed to me by my doctor. So I went ahead to took the whole bottle of sleeping pills and made a little prayer to thank for the life I have had. So I got back in bed and laid their until I fell asleep hopefully for the last time. Just after I started to fall asleep Michelle came in to say goodnight to me and noticed the way I had placed the Envelopes and saw the empty bottle of pills on the floor. So she immediately came to the bed and started shaking me to make me stay awake while she called 911 and got some help to come. She later told me in the hospital while I was having my stomach pumped out, that she refused to let me end my life that way and would help me through this. So after having my stomach pumped I was driven home and was led into the den and was told to lay down on the bed and she would be back in a minute. I heard her leave and come back in with Wade and was carrying some bags that I guessed she picked up on her way to pick up Wade from School. When Michelle came in the den to let me know she was back she found me crying and came over and knelt beside me and started to comfort me some more to let me know that it was OK and that she would make sure that I would adapt to my new life and learn to accept it. Then she left and brought in three bags that contained things she bought at the store. I found out at the time I was in the hospital having my stomach pumped that she called my mother and informed her of what happened and Michelle suggested that if she treated me like I was a little kid that I might adapt to my new life of having to wear diapers again. So after Michelle brought the bags in and emptied them and told me what she was going to do to help me deal with my new life. So she said that she bought some baby supplies and was going to treat me as a little kid to a certain point. So I started to cry again and was scared and frighten of the changes. So she went and filled up a bottle with milk and came back into the room and laid down on the bed with me next to her and started to sing to me while I was drinking the bottle of milk and helped me fall asleep that night. The next morning she woke me up and changed my diaper and helped me into the bathroom to give me a bath. After my bath she helped me back into my room and diapered me and than showed me a jammie with a zipper in the front and asked me to wear it so I stayed warm and then helped me into the living room and went to make breakfast while I watched TV. Since I was still pretty upset and feeling so depressed I started to cry again and than my sister from California who's name is Tammy called and talked to Michelle and suggested that she would come over and help her with trying to get me over the depressing feelings I was having. So after Michelle hung up the phone she came into the living room and started to rock me and sing to me and help me relax. The next thing I knew I felt a diaper being brought up between legs and looked up to see my sister Tammy changing me on the couch and I asked where did you come from and she said that I came up from California to help you and I than asked her how did I get on the couch. So Michelle told me that I fell asleep while crying in her arms and she than laid me down on the couch. So after finishing putting a new diaper on me and zipping up the sleeper I was wearing Tammy started to hold me and talk to me and I started to tell both of them why I was so depressed and wanted to end my life. I told them that since I would have to wear diapers and that I felt so guilty about the plane crash and that losing two of my friends that would still be alive if I did not want to go on the fishing trip so badly that I no longer wanted to live with the guilty feelings that I am living with, and that also losing the chance of playing football again that I did not deserve what happened to me and I asked them if they could help me with allowing me to end my life. This shocked my sister so much that she started to cry because we were always close and that wanting help to end my life was the last thing she thought that I would ask for. So after seeing my own sister break down with how close I was to her I grabbed my crutches and tried to leave and go outside and do some more thinking. So I went to the shed and grabbed the pocket knife from the drawer and went back inside and said that since you are not going to help me that I would have to take matters in my own hands and grabbed the knife from my pocket and tried to slit my wrists when I just dropped the knife. I just could not go through with the plan and I tried to take off and fell to the floor in extreme pain. I do not know why I tried to walk on my legs when I do not have enough strength in my knee yet to support any weight on it. So Michelle came over to me and helped me to the couch and brought me some pain medication and a bottle of juice and started to sink while my sister went to my room and brought a pillow and blanket and a diaper into the living room and started to help me feel comfortable while she made me something to eat, so Michelle put the pillow under my head and changed my diaper which when she untaped it she found out to her surprise and to me for that matter that I had messed myself, her reaction was to say a little surprised and just went ahead and cleaned me up and said not to worry about that it will happen. About ten minutes later Tammy brought me some soup and a sandwich and let me eat and soon fell asleep. Part 6 The Revivify (To give New Life To) I slept for the rest of the day and night on the couch and woke up in the morning having a dream. I was awoken by Wade who saw me on the couch having a dream and woke me up. I was scared about being woke up so suddenly I started to cry and Tammy can rushing in to see what was wrong. I was able to tell her between sobs of tears of the dream I was having which was about the crash. So after calming down and drinking a bottle of juice that Michelle made for me while I was telling Tammy about my dream when I fell asleep and was informed later that day by Wade that Tammy tucked me in and was shaking her head and made the comment poor kid he still is having nightmares about what happened to him. Now after being informed of how sad my Sister was for me I made the decision to finally deal with my new life and I started to try and cope with the changes in my life. So I started to feel that having to wear diapers were not that bad their is a lot of other things in life that can be worse. So I went and ate dinner and talked with Wade that night. After talking with Wade and learned his opinions on how he felt with his own feelings of going through that crash I realized that during the time I was in the hospital that he also went through guilt feelings about how much I was injured and losing the two friends in the crash. While I was talking with Wade, Michelle came in and noticed that I was tired and looked pale so she came over to me and put her hand on my forehead to check my forehead and noticed that I seemed hot and went and got a thermometer and checked my temperature and it registered at 102 so she had me crawl in bed and went to get some medicine and a bottle of juice. As she came back and gave me the medicine and started to tuck me in she asked me in I needed to be changed. Well I said I did so she went and grabbed a diaper off the dresser and removed the covers and unzipped the sleeper and removed it so she could get to my diaper and change me. When Michelle untapped the diaper and pulled it down she noticed that I had messed in it as well. So after changing me and tucking me Michelle sat down and rub my back until I fell asleep. In the morning I was awoken of the sound of my bedroom door opening it was Tammy coming in to see how I was doing. I was still feeling hot so after asking me how I was feeling she went over and grabbed a diaper from the dresser and some wipes and proceeded to change me. After being changed I was hungry so I was helped into the kitchen and ate a small breakfast and the next thing I knew I fell asleep at the table and was being carried back to my bed by Tammy and was tucked in. The next thing I realized was that it was the next morning and the same routine was again done but this time by Michelle, now after changing me and checking my temp it had returned back to normal so I started to get up and watch some TV with the help of Michelle though. So after being sick for the past two days and got well I found out that in a couple of days that Tammy had to go back to California and get back to her own family. Just before she left I had a talk with her and told her how much I appreciated here coming and helping me dealing with what I was going through, she told me that she was glad to help and by helping me she felt that we became closer as a brother-sister relationship. Part 7 The New Adventure of Visiting School Well about the middle of November just before the snow started to come I paid a surprise visit to my school. Just before the first rush of kids went to lunch I arrived still using crutches to pay a visit to some of my teachers and classmates. So about 10:45 I was still trying to get to the front office when the rush of kids came out and some of my fellow football players saw me and came up to me. So I greeted them and went to the lunch room and I was mob by a group of kids who wanted to greet me and one of them was pushed from behind into my bad leg and I nearly fell to the ground in extreme pain. When one of the PE teachers came to break up the crowd and saw that my knee cap was out of alignment and wanted to call 911 and I told him not to and that it would pop back in place with a little help. So I told my fellow football player Steven to hold my leg straight and let me pop it back in place. When I did I screamed in extreme pain because that morning I had forgot to take my pain medication because I wanted to stop by school and I almost pasted out because of the pain. Well about five minutes later I was back to normal except for the pain I was going through. So I visited with my friends and after the first lunch I went to the office and talked to the receptionist and found out that Mr. Lehnis and Dan Clark were in their classrooms and were about to go to lunch so I went to their classrooms and visited with them and to say they were glad to see me was a understatement. I spent about two hours talking to both of them and decided I should go home. The pain was starting to get to me so I started to go home when out of nowhere I was knocked to the ground by someone hitting me with a door as I was passing by the door on the way to the office and went down and did not get up. I was brought to the nurses office and taken to the hospital where I had to have a second surgery on that knee. When I landed on the ground the artificial knee cap was shattered and had to have a new one put in place of that one. So my brother came and picked me up and drove me home after the surgery was over, I thought I would have to stay overnight but found out that it was just day surgery since just the cap had to be replaced and not having to rebuild the rest of the knee. So I went home and fell asleep because I was in so much pain from the day's event. Part 8 Well it was December and I was finally well enough that I wanted to go back to school. So it was arranged that I would go back at the beginning of the Second Semester and tried to learn what I could, I was well aware that I would have to repeat that year and graduate a year later than I was going to. So I found out that the football team made it to the playoffs so I wanted to go to the football rally that was being held in the gym on that Friday just before the first game of the playoffs. So when Friday came around I was brought to school by Michelle and went to the football rally still using crutches I was able to enter the gym just before everyone else entered and was standing against the wall wear the Hawk was painted on the wall which is the school Mascot. So as everyone came in and saw that I was their I got several welcomes that I was able to come and support the team. Just as the rally was about halfway through I was asked by the principal if I was all right because I looked in so much pain and discomfort. I told her that I was still having problems with my knee and that was causing my discomfort. So she had one of the teachers help me over to the bleacher so I could raise my leg and help relive the pain. So as I went to get up as the rally was ending I tried to put some pressure on the leg so I could leave and fell to the ground screaming in pain and was helped up by the team and led to the car. I found out later after going to the doctor to help do exercises I was informed that my knee would never be a hundred percent and that I would have wear a brace to keep the knee in place. I will admit this help allow me to be able to put weight on the knee with the help of the crutches. So as one of my final surprises before I went back to school I had to inform to nurse of my bladder injury and would have to wear diapers to school. I was informed that she already knew of my medical problems from my mother and that each of my teachers knew of the problem as well. So this helped relieved some of the tensions I was having to return to School. Now as the Final Surprise before returning to school was that the third week in December just before the Winter Break let out I walked into School without the crutches and walked around school surprising everyone because two weeks earlier I could not put any weight on the leg. The brace I was wearing allowed the knee to stay in proper alignment and put weight on the leg. So as the Football Team was heading out to play another playoff game which they lost 20 to 19 I walked to the bus and with some trouble got on the bus and wished them luck at the game. Part 9 The New Semester. For the rest of the School year my knee grew stronger and stronger to wear by the end of the year I only had to wear the brace when the leg was sore so I did not take any chance of it becoming re-injured. Now when it came to accepting that I had to wear diapers because of the accident as well the kids would be very uncomfortable because they did not want to seem like they were not cool or something like that I don't remember now. The teachers just seem to accept it and I would be a regular visitor to the nurse so she could help me change. Now their was one person that would help me even more at being able to accept that this is now a part of my life. She was the girl that I liked all the time. One day I finally asked her out and after the date I was walking her to the car when she asked me to come over so she could talk to me. Well the conversation was not what I was thinking it was going to be about. The conversation turned out to be that she was willing to help me through with the idea of having to wear diapers and that when we were out on dates that she would help me and change me. So from that day on for the next couple of years we dated and she would always help change my diapers when they needed to be. Part 10 The Final Adaptation to my new Life. Now since going out with her for two years and I started to become desperately in love with her I started to like the feelings of how she wanted to help me with my new life. Well one day we were on a walk at a park and I am not sure how it came about but I made a comment about wanting to start to wear baby clothes and act like a baby. So Amy told me she would help me with acting like a baby when I want to. Well two weeks went by and I did not want to try acting like a baby yet. Then one day I came home and she had already beat me home and I found her in the living room waiting for me with a big box by the couch and asked what is going on and she told me that she was able to find some baby clothes and other supplies for me. So I took a look at them and liked everyone of the clothes and than Amy asked if I wanted to try them on and so I did. Now after trying them on I asked if I could have a bottle and she made me some formula which was not bad at first and came in and showed me another surprise which turned out to be two bags of diapers and a diaper bag. So Amy pulled a diaper out and came over to me with the bottle and diaper and asked me to lay down and drink the bottle while she changed my diaper which was soaked. So I did and the next thing I knew I woke up in a onesie and pacifier on the couch and looked around to find that Amy started to treat me like a infant and I liked every minute of it. The next day was Friday and after School I took Amy to the movies and found out that she started to carry a diaper bag with her. I asked her what was she doing and she said don't worry mommy knows what to do and just ignored the idea of her carrying a diaper bag. So we watched the movie and at the end I needed to be changed and so she took me by the hand and carried the diaper bag and took me to the bathroom to be changed and to my surprise their was no one in the bathroom. When we came out their was a woman who was surprised to see me walking out of the bathroom in a diaper and shirt, on the way to the car I got a lot of looks and some laughs but just ignored them. While I was being changed I found out the diaper had leaked and I had no other pants with me so I had to walk out in just a diaper. This continued until I went to college at U.W. and Amy went to Oregon University. Now that I have graduated college with two degrees in Computer Networking and Electronic Engineering, Amy and I have moved in with each other and I now work as a Computer Technician and Amy as a Paralegal we try to play the mother baby role as often as we can. I feel that I will have to wear diapers for the rest of my life. So being treated as a infant at time does help relieve the stress of life not just for me but for Amy as well. So as you can see I have no problem with this and by playing this role it helps me feel comfortable with the idea of dealing with the changes in my life."Please feel free to e-mail me with comments at
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