My desire to wear diapers started when I was about ten years old. We lived in a trailer park in Graham, Washington. Our neighbors had a son my age who wore diapers to bed. My mother babysat him at night when his mother worked the late shift. Mom refused to diaper him at his age, so he always came over wearing his diapers. His mom didn’t care who knew about his diapers, so she would send him over right after school wearing nothing but a t-shirt and a diaper. He was teased a lot by the other kids, which only drew me closer to him. I’ve always had a soft heart and have always befriended the outcasts. At the time I was having problems of my own. PUBERTY!!! I guess the shaping of my sexual future was influenced by my friends diapers. I started having dreams about being tied up and made to wear diapers. I couldn’t imagine myself wanting to wear diapers, but being made to seemed appealing. At this point, I started to have fantasies about bondage and being spanked for not wearing my diapers. Before long the fantasy was to just be humiliated. Diapers, bondage, dresses, enemas... you name it. I never had the chance to wear diapers until high school. Completely by accident I found exactly what I’d been looking for... ...DIAPERS!!! Needing to use the restroom one day, I decided to use the nurses bathroom instead of walking to the end of the hall. There I found a box of medium size Attends. Not being able to help myself, I stashed a few in my book bag and went home early. When I got home, I sprawled out on my bed and situated my first adult diaper under my butt. As soon as I pulled it across my groin I had an orgasm. I dropped out of school my junior year and moved in with friends. I started collecting everything I could about adult babies and diaper wearers. I haven’t had any girlfriends to share this with, but there was a woman who knew about my fetish and enjoyed acting out my(and her) fantasies. She liked to put me in diapers and tie me up. While tied she would pull down my diapers and spank me. Then she would give me an enema and make me expel it into my diapers. I never enjoyed the spankings or enemas, but it was a small price to pay for being able to share my fetish with another. There was never any sexual relations between us, she just liked to torment me. Now I live in a house with my parents. I pay half the rent, so I have complete freedom. I’m 23 years old. I’m bi-curious and still looking for that special person to dominate me and keep me diapered. Not into being a baby, just being humiliated. If anybody is interested, email me.