From: (ARKB838487) Subject: ~Nobody Knows Part 1 Date: 28 Feb 1996 00:45:07 -0500 Nobody Knew Part 1. Hello my name is Sam, and I have a secret that nobody around where I live knows. Uh, what's that? You want to know my secret! Well, I ah, I ah, well I kinda, ah well, like to wear diapers. Okay! I know that I am too big to be wearing diapers, after all I am 14 years old, but I can't help it, I like them. Huh, Why do I wear diapers? Well that's a tough question. I can't figure out just when it started, but it started sometime when I was a child. I remember mom talking to me, telling me that I was too big to be wearing diapers anymore, that kids at day care school would laugh at me. But I didn't care. They were soft and thick, and I liked them. But she stripped them away from me, because it just wouldn't look right. So I was diaperless, and heart broken, and sent off to a strange place. But when I got the place, to my surprise there were diapers stacked everywhere. I thought I had died and gone to heaven, until the lady said that I was in the wrong room, this room was for babies. So once again, turned away from a whole room full of what I love, I was still diaperless. I just had to get my hands on some of those diapers, they were sitting in that room calling my name. But it was hopeless, so all I could do was dream of a fluffy white diaper cushioning my bottom, Later on in my life, I was much older now, 7 years old going on 8, when my first chance to get some diapers occurred. I was playing around the back side of our neighbor's house, and they were doing their Spring cleaning, and throwing out all kinds of neat stuff. I asked them and they said that I could have any of the old junk that I wanted as long as I didn't make a mess of the pile that was waiting for the junk man. So I started looking through all of the neat stuff that they were throwing away. I had started making a stack of stuff and soon realized that I needed transportation to and from my fort. (My fort was in the loft of our old barn that was used for storage of old stuff that we didn't use any more like a baby crib and changing table and the matching dressers and junk like that was stacked up in the corner leaving a very big room to play in. there was a ladder at the base of the loft that was nailed to the wall going up to a trap door, that when lifted let you into my fort. It was my sister's before she grew up and left, so there was some of her old stuff in the another corner too and she had put curtains and stuff up in it. but that was okay I really didn't care, because now it's mine. It was her doll house, but now it's my fort, my private place, that no one else went.). So I quickly grabbed my trusty red wagon and ran, pulling it behind me, as fast as I could to get all of the stuff that I could back to my fort before the junk man could get it. After about three loads I was getting tired and decided that I needed to put a box or something in my wagon first, so I could stack stuff up higher. So I started looking around and there it was. They must have brought it out with the last load and put it on the pile. It looked like a treasure chest, and the top was closed and locked. So I grabbed it up and loaded it on my wagon to take it to the fort. Once I got to the fort, my mind was on the treasure chest. What could be in it? So I tied a rope around it and hoisted it up into my fort. (It was very hard to do. I dropped it two times before I finally got it up there.) Then I grabbed a screwdriver and pried the lock open. I slowly opened the top and peered into the chest. I couldn't believe my eyes! A chest full of diapers and baby bottles and rattles and plastic pants, and pacifiers, and baby clothes. I had hit the jackpot! Everything that I had ever dreamed of having was here and mine. It must have been their college daughter's stuff from when she was a baby! Part 2 I just couldn't believe my eyes. I started neatly taking things out of the treasure chest and made different piles of stuff all around me. Diapers in one pile, diaper inserts in another pile, baby bottles stood up beside each other according to their colors, diaper pins, baby bibs, plastic pants, it was just unbelievable! After I got all of the stuff out of the treasure chest, I just sat down the midst of all my new-found treasure and started dreaming of all the things that I was going to do. The longer I sat there, the more uncomfortable I got, so I grabbed a stack of the diapers and made myself a pillow, and laid down and continued dreaming of my next move. Then all of a sudden I heard a faint voice calling me, "Sam!" Then I heard it again, "Sam, are you up there?" I opened my eyes and looked around the room. It was dark. And then I remembered where I was. I must have dozed off, and now it was dark, and late, and everyone was probably looking for me! I could hear Mom at the base of the fort, about to start climbing the ladder, and I heard her calling me, "Sam, Sam, are you up there?" Oh no! I just got my new treasures and was about to get caught before I even got a chance to try them out. What was I going to do? I had to think fast! And now she was about to start climbing! What was I going to do? So I said, "I'll be right down, Mom!" I opened the trap door and her flashlight blinded my eyes. I reached up and covered my eyes to block the bright light, and before I could get another word out of my mouth, Mom said, "YOU'D BETTER GET YOURSELF DOWN HERE YOUNG MAN!" I started down the ladder and Mom never missed a beat in yelling at me. " DO YOU KNOW HOW LATE IT IS? YOU KNOW YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE HOUSE BEFORE DARK, AND HERE IT IS PITCH BLACK OUT, AND YOU'RE PLAYING IN A DARK OLD BARN. YOU COULD HAVE BEEN HURT OR EVEN KILLED! HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD YOU TO BE IN THE HOUSE BEFORE DARK, HUH? ANSWER ME! HOW MANY TIMES?" At that point I was at the base of the ladder and standing in front of Mom. I answered, "I dunno." She then slapped me on the behind and said again, "GET IN THAT HOUSE YOUNG MAN!" But before I could get out of her reach she got me by the ear and led me into the house (I just hate it when she grabs me by the ear). At least she didn't see my stuff, so my treasures were safe from detection for the night. Part 3 When we got in the house, Mom firmly planted me in my chair at the dining room table. Then she went into the kitchen and brought in a bowl of cold pea soup. Now, a word about pea soup. I HATE pea soup, and this was COLD PEA SOUP. I looked at the soup, then I looked at Mom and was just about to say, "Do you really expect me to eat this?" when I noticed the look on her face. That look told me very clearly that I had better be quiet, so I sat there sulking in my pea soup. Although I was moving my spoon, I wasn't really eating, and my mind kept being drawn back to my treasure chest and all my new-found stuff. Mom came in and noticed that I hadn't been eating and said, "Just go straight to bed then." As I climbed into bed, my thoughts were once again drawn to my fort and my treasures, and I couldn't wait until tomorrow. The next morning I woke up bright and early to the sounds of Mom cooking breakfast and the smell of bacon gently wafting through all the rooms of the house. I stretched a few more times and got up and went downstairs to get breakfast. Dad was sitting in his chair at the table reading the Sunday newspaper. As I came in, he reached down to the floor and picked up the comics and handed them to me and said, "Good Morning Sam, I see you slept in late this morning. Could be that you stayed out too long last night." I just picked up the comics sheepishly and scooted into my chair, hoping that if I was quiet enough, I wouldn't be punished. Mom set breakfast down and said, "After breakfast, for your punishment, I have a few chores for you to do. I want you to go out and straighten up the barn." I didn't want to appear too eager, after all it was supposed to be my punishment, but inside I was jumping for joy. Just think, a whole day with no one bothering me to play with my new treasures! I bet Mom thought I was losing my mind, eating as fast as I could to go start my punishment. Before she could even sit down to her plate, I was asking, "Can I be done now?" She looked at my plate and said, "Yes, you can be done." Before the last words left her mouth, I was already out the back door. At that point, I started running to get to the barn as fast as I could. Once in the barn, I was up the ladder like a flash! I opened the trap door and there they were..... all of my treasures still in their neat stacks from the night before. I grabbed one of the diapers and held it up and started looking at it. The more I looked at it, the more the temptation got to me. I just had to try it on! So I unsnapped my bib overalls, laid the diaper neatly in the floor, grabbed some diaper pins and put the diaper on over my underwear. After all, if someone came in, I didn't want them to catch me, so I had to be able to move fast to get back into my clothes. So I sat there in the nice fluffy white diaper and felt it wrapped around me and how comfortable it was. Then I decided that with my bib overalls on, no one would know that I was wearing a diaper. So I quickly unpinned the diaper and removed my underwear, and put the diaper back on, pinning it as best I could without poking myself. I stood up and said, "Now, I am almost like a real baby!" I reached over and grabbed a pair of plastic pants and put them on over the diaper. To my surprise, they fit just right. That must be because I'm so small for my age. But anyway, I grabbed my bib overalls and put them back on over the diaper and plastic pants, and decided to go down in the barn to start straightening up. I could work in diapers all day and no one would ever know! I was so excited about being able to work in a diaper all day that I ran quickly over to the trap door and lifted it up and started to go down the ladder. As I went to step on the first step, I missed it and landed hard on the ground below in the barn. I remember looking up and that was it...... Part 4 Next I remember Mom standing over me wiping my face with a rag saying, "Honey, don't move, an ambulance is on the way. You fell and hurt yourself real bad. Just don't move." I looked back up to the trap door and realized that I had fallen from the very top and now I was hurting real bad. And then all of a sudden, it dawned on me and I thought, "OH NO! I'VE GOT A DIAPER ON UNDER MY BIB OVERALLS!" I looked up at Mom as she was still wiping my forehead with a washcloth and wondered, "Does she know? And if she does know, what is she gonna say? And if she doesn't know, how am I gonna get this diaper off before anyone sees me?" I was struggling, trying to move, when I realized there was something wrong with my arm and my leg. There was nothing I could do. All I could do was be quiet and hope in all the excitement that no one would notice. And I just won't take my clothes off, so no one will know. With that thought, it eased my mind and I must have dozed off again, because the next thing I remember was being put in the ambulance. Mom was sitting beside me in the ambulance, crying and holding my hand. The ambulance took off with the sirens blaring. They had me strapped down so I couldn't move my head, my arms or legs or anything. I couldn't tell if my clothes were still on or not, and as hard as I tried to look to see, the neck brace held me down too much and I couldn't tell. I thought, "Maybe that's why Mom is crying, because I'm wearing a diaper and she is mad at me." When we arrived at the hospital, the back doors flew open and a man grabbed the stretcher I was on and pulled it into the hospital. They told Mom she would have to wait in another room while they did the initial exam. They wheeled me into a room and closed the door and started removing all the stuff they had put on me. And then they cut my bib overalls off of me and cut my brand new diaper and plastic pants off too and threw them over in a pile. I was laying naked in that room with all these people staring at me. They brought in an x-ray machine and took a lot of pictures. As they were putting the hospital gown on me, I noticed a man writing down everything the doctor did and said, and then I must have fell asleep again. When I woke up, I was in a room and Mom was holding my hand again and saying, "Don't worry, Sam, everything is gonna be fine. The doctor said that you broke your shoulder and your leg and have multiple contusions and bruises all over your body. So, you're gonna be laid up for quite awhile. Now, honey, there is something I have to tell you that you are probably not going to like. Because your arms are damaged and your leg it broke, you are gonna have to wear diapers for awhile and I will have to feed you. It's not anything to be embarrassed about, it just has to be done for awhile. It might be some time before you get out of the hospital. But don't worry, I will be right here beside you." I asked her, "When do I have to start wearing diapers?" as if I really didn't want to wear them at all. And she said, "Honey, they put one on your already." So I just had to look. I asked Mom to pick up the covers so that I could see. So she stood up and lifted up the covers, and sure enough, there it was, a GREAT BIG DISPOSABLE DIAPER!. It looked and felt quite comfy. She then put the covers down and noticed a little bit of a smile on my face and commented, "Well, this may not be as bad for you as I thought it would be." Part 5 Now, it is one thing to get to wear diapers, but it is another thing altogether when you have to use them with a Mother that won't leave your side. I was laying there and I really had to go bad, and I didn't know what to do. So finally I asked Mom, "Mom, I need to use the bathroom." And she looked at me and said, "Well go right ahead, Sam" and just stared at me as though she were wanting to watch. I said, "Well, do you have to stare at me?" And she said, "Sam, it won't be the first time I've seen you pee pee or poo poo in your diapers." With that comment, my face turned bright red. I was totally embarrassed. And then I said, "Could you at least leave the room until I'm done?" With that she said, "No, Sam, I can't." The doctor said we need to watch you all the time for a few days to make sure there are no other complications that they are not aware of." "Well, could you at least turn around then?" With that she started laughing and said, "Sammy, these diapers are starting to make you act like a baby already!" I looked at her and said, "I'll just wait then." And she said, "Good, but I don't think you can hold it for a couple of months, and that is how long you're gonna be wearing diapers." With that, I just turned my head and acted like I fell asleep. But my bladder was about to explode! So I slowly relaxed and let my bladder relieve itself into the diaper. Man, what a relief! And it felt kind of good too. And she didn't even know I had done it. And then I heard a buzzer go off. I said, "What's that, Mom?" And she said, "Aha, I guess you couldn't hold it after all. That was the sensor alerting us that you just wet your diaper." Well, I just couldn't believe it! I was totally embarrassed again. Mom beeped the nurse to let her know that I needed my diaper changed. And I said, "Gee, Mom, did you have to talk so loud? Now everybody on this floor knows that I have a wet diaper." Then Mom said, "Oh dear, that is nothing, wait until you hear the alarm that goes off when you poo poo! and then she winked at me, jokingly" To be continued.....