From:  (ARKB838487)
Subject: ~Nobody Knows   Part 1
Date: 28 Feb 1996 00:45:07 -0500

Nobody Knew

Part 1.

	Hello my name is Sam, and I have a secret that nobody 
around where I live knows. Uh, what's that? You want to know 
my secret!  Well, I ah, I ah, well I kinda, ah well, like to 
wear diapers. Okay! I know that I am too big to be wearing 
diapers, after all I am 14 years old, but I can't help it, I 
like them. Huh, Why do I wear diapers? Well that's a tough 
question. I can't figure out just when it started, but it 
started sometime when I was a child.  I remember mom talking 
to me, telling me that I was too big to be wearing diapers 
anymore, that kids at day care school would laugh at me. But 
I didn't care. They were soft and thick, and I liked them. 
But she stripped them away from me, because it just wouldn't 
look right. So I was diaperless, and heart broken, and sent 
off to a strange place. But when I got the place, to my 
surprise there were diapers stacked everywhere. I thought I 
had died and gone to heaven, until the lady said that I was 
in the wrong room, this room was for babies. So once again, 
turned away from a whole room full of what I love, I was 
still diaperless. I just had to get my hands on some of 
those diapers, they were sitting in that room calling my 
name. But it was hopeless, so all I could do was dream of a 
fluffy white diaper cushioning my bottom, 
	Later on in my life, I was much older now, 7 years old 
going on 8, when my first chance to get some diapers 
occurred. 
	I was playing around the back side of our neighbor's 
house, and they were doing their Spring cleaning, and 
throwing out all kinds of neat stuff. I asked them and they 
said that I could have any of the old junk that I wanted as 
long as I didn't make a mess of the pile that was waiting 
for the junk man. So I started looking through all of the 
neat stuff that they were throwing away. I had started 
making a stack of stuff and soon realized that I needed 
transportation to and from my fort. (My fort was in the loft 
of our old barn that was used for storage of old stuff that 
we didn't use any more like a baby crib and changing table 
and the matching dressers and junk like that was stacked up 
in the corner leaving a very big room to play in. there was 
a ladder at the base of the loft that was nailed to the wall 
going up to a trap door, that when lifted let you into my 
fort. It was my sister's before she grew up and left, so 
there was some of her old stuff in the another corner too 
and she had put curtains and stuff up in it. but that was 
okay I really didn't care,  because now it's mine. It was 
her doll house, but now it's my fort, my private place, that 
no one else went.). So I quickly grabbed my trusty red wagon 
and ran, pulling it behind me, as fast as I could to get all 
of the stuff that I could back to my fort before the junk 
man could get it. After about three loads I was getting 
tired and decided that I needed to put a box or something in 
my wagon first, so I could stack stuff up higher. So I 
started looking around and there it was. They must have 
brought it out with the last load and put it on the pile. It 
looked like a treasure chest, and the top was closed and 
locked. So I grabbed it up and loaded it on my wagon to take 
it to the fort. Once I got to the fort, my mind was on the 
treasure chest. What could be in it? So I tied a rope around 
it and hoisted it up into my fort. (It was very hard to do. 
I dropped it two times before I finally got it up there.) 
Then I grabbed a screwdriver and pried the lock open. I 
slowly opened the top and peered into the chest. I couldn't 
believe my eyes! A chest full of diapers and baby bottles 
and rattles and plastic pants, and pacifiers, and baby 
clothes. I had hit the jackpot! Everything that I had ever 
dreamed of having was here and mine. It must have been their 
college daughter's stuff from when she was a baby! 

Part 2 

	I just couldn't believe my eyes. I started neatly 
taking things out of the treasure chest and made different 
piles of stuff all around me. Diapers in one pile, diaper 
inserts in another pile, baby bottles stood up beside each 
other according to their colors, diaper pins, baby bibs, 
plastic pants, it was just unbelievable! 
	After I got all of the stuff out of the treasure chest, 
I just sat down the midst of all my new-found treasure and 
started dreaming of all the things that I was going to do. 
The longer I sat there, the more uncomfortable I got, so I 
grabbed a stack of the diapers and made myself a pillow, and 
laid down and continued dreaming of my next move. 
	Then all of a sudden I heard a faint voice calling me, 
"Sam!" Then I heard it again, "Sam, are you up there?" I 
opened my eyes and looked around the room. It was dark. And 
then I remembered where I was. I must have dozed off, and 
now it was dark, and late, and everyone was probably looking 
for me! I could hear Mom at the base of the fort, about to 
start climbing the ladder, and I heard her calling me, "Sam, 
Sam, are you up there?" Oh no! I just got my new treasures 
and was about to get caught before I even got a chance to 
try them out. What was I going to do? I had to think fast! 
And now she was about to start climbing! What was I going to 
do? So I said, "I'll be right down, Mom!"  I opened the trap 
door and her flashlight blinded my eyes. I reached up and 
covered my eyes to block the bright light, and before I 
could get another word out of my mouth, Mom said, "YOU'D 
BETTER GET YOURSELF DOWN HERE YOUNG MAN!" I started down the 
ladder and Mom never missed a beat in yelling at me. " DO 
YOU KNOW HOW LATE IT IS? YOU KNOW YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE IN 
THE HOUSE BEFORE DARK, AND HERE IT IS PITCH BLACK OUT, AND 
YOU'RE PLAYING IN A DARK OLD BARN. YOU COULD HAVE BEEN HURT 
OR EVEN KILLED! HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD YOU TO BE IN THE 
HOUSE BEFORE DARK, HUH? ANSWER ME! HOW MANY TIMES?" At that 
point I was at the base of the ladder and standing in front 
of Mom. I answered, "I dunno." She then slapped me on the 
behind and said again, "GET IN THAT HOUSE YOUNG MAN!" But 
before I could get out of her reach she got me by the ear 
and led me into the house (I just hate it when she grabs me 
by the ear). At least she didn't see my stuff, so my 
treasures were safe from detection for the night. 

Part 3

	 When we got in the house, Mom firmly planted me in my 
chair at the dining room table. Then she went into the 
kitchen and brought in a bowl of cold pea soup. Now, a word 
about pea soup. I HATE pea soup, and this was COLD PEA SOUP. 
I looked at the soup, then I looked at Mom and was just 
about to say, "Do you really expect me to eat this?" when I 
noticed the look on her face. That look told me very clearly 
that I had better be quiet, so I sat there sulking in my pea 
soup. Although I was moving my spoon, I wasn't really 
eating, and my mind kept being drawn back to my treasure 
chest and all my new-found stuff. Mom came in and noticed 
that I hadn't been eating and said, "Just go straight to bed 
then." 
	As I climbed into bed, my thoughts were once again 
drawn to my fort and my treasures, and I couldn't wait until 
tomorrow. 
	The next morning I woke up bright and early to the 
sounds of Mom cooking breakfast and the smell of bacon 
gently wafting through all the rooms of the house. I 
stretched a few more times and got up and went downstairs to 
get breakfast. Dad was sitting in his chair at the table 
reading the Sunday newspaper. As I came in, he reached down 
to the floor and picked up the comics and handed them to me 
and said, "Good Morning Sam, I see you slept in late this 
morning. Could be that you stayed out too long last night." 
I just picked up the comics sheepishly and scooted into my 
chair, hoping that if I was quiet enough, I wouldn't be 
punished. Mom set breakfast down and said, "After breakfast, 
for your punishment, I have a few chores for you to do. I 
want you to go out and straighten up the barn." I didn't 
want to appear too eager, after all it was supposed to be my 
punishment, but inside I was jumping for joy. Just think, a 
whole day with no one bothering me to play with my new 
treasures! I bet Mom thought I was losing my mind, eating as 
fast as I could to go start my punishment. Before she could 
even sit down to her plate, I was asking, "Can I be done 
now?" She looked at my plate and said, "Yes, you can be 
done." Before the last words left her mouth, I was already 
out the back door. At that point, I started running to get 
to the barn as fast as I could. Once in the barn, I was up 
the ladder like a flash! I opened the trap door and there 
they were..... all of my treasures still in their neat 
stacks from the night before. 
	I grabbed one of the diapers and held it up and started 
looking at it. The more I looked at it, the more the 
temptation got to me. I just had to try it on! So I 
unsnapped my bib overalls, laid the diaper neatly in the 
floor, grabbed some diaper pins and put the diaper on over 
my underwear. After all, if someone came in, I didn't want 
them to catch me, so I had to be able to move fast to get 
back into my clothes. So I sat there in the nice fluffy 
white diaper and felt it wrapped around me and how 
comfortable it was. Then I decided that with my bib overalls 
on, no one would know that I was wearing a diaper. So I 
quickly unpinned the diaper and removed my underwear, and 
put the diaper back on, pinning it as best I could without 
poking myself. I stood up and said, "Now, I am almost like a 
real baby!" I reached over and grabbed a pair of plastic 
pants and put them on over the diaper. To my surprise, they 
fit just right. That must be because I'm so small for my 
age. But anyway, I grabbed my bib overalls and put them back 
on over the diaper and plastic pants, and decided to go down 
in the barn to start straightening up. I could work in 
diapers all day and no one would ever know! 
	I was so excited about being able to work in a diaper 
all day that I ran quickly over to the trap door and lifted 
it up and started to go down the ladder. As I went to step 
on the first step, I missed it and landed hard on the ground 
below in the barn. I remember looking up and that was 
it...... 

Part 4

	Next I remember Mom standing over me wiping my face 
with a rag saying, "Honey, don't move, an ambulance is on 
the way. You fell and hurt yourself real bad. Just don't 
move." I looked back up to the trap door and realized that I 
had fallen from the very top and now I was hurting real bad. 
And then all of a sudden, it dawned on me and I thought, "OH 
NO! I'VE GOT A DIAPER ON UNDER MY BIB OVERALLS!" I looked up 
at Mom as she was still wiping my forehead with a washcloth 
and wondered, "Does she know? And if she does know, what is 
she gonna say? And if she doesn't know, how am I gonna get 
this diaper off before anyone sees me?" 
	I was struggling, trying to move, when I realized there 
was something wrong with my arm and my leg. There was 
nothing I could do. All I could do was be quiet and hope in 
all the excitement that no one would notice. And I just 
won't take my clothes off, so no one will know. With that 
thought, it eased my mind and I must have dozed off again, 
because the next thing I remember was being put in the 
ambulance. Mom was sitting beside me in the ambulance, 
crying and holding my hand. The ambulance took off with the 
sirens blaring. They had me strapped down so I couldn't move 
my head, my arms or legs or anything. I couldn't tell if my 
clothes were still on or not, and as hard as I tried to look 
to see, the neck brace held me down too much and I couldn't 
tell. I thought, "Maybe that's why Mom is crying, because 
I'm wearing a diaper and she is mad at me." 
	When we arrived at the hospital, the back doors flew 
open and a man grabbed the stretcher I was on and pulled it 
into the hospital. They told Mom she would have to wait in 
another room while they did the initial exam. They wheeled 
me into a room and closed the door and started removing all 
the stuff they had put on me. And then they cut my bib 
overalls off of me and cut my brand new diaper and plastic 
pants off too and threw them over in a pile. I was laying 
naked in that room with all these people staring at me. They 
brought in an x-ray machine and took a lot of pictures. As 
they were putting the hospital gown on me, I noticed a man 
writing down everything the doctor did and said, and then I 
must have fell asleep again. 
	When I woke up, I was in a room and Mom was holding my 
hand again and saying, "Don't worry, Sam, everything is 
gonna be fine. The doctor said that you broke your shoulder 
and your leg and have multiple contusions and bruises all 
over your body. So, you're gonna be laid up for quite 
awhile. Now, honey, there is something I have to tell you 
that you are probably not going to like. Because your arms 
are damaged and your leg it broke, you are gonna have to 
wear diapers for awhile and I will have to feed you. It's 
not anything to be embarrassed about, it just has to be done 
for awhile. It might be some time before you get out of the 
hospital. But don't worry, I will be right here beside you." 
I asked her, "When do I have to start wearing diapers?" as 
if I really didn't want to wear them at all. And she said, 
"Honey, they put one on your already." So I just had to 
look. I asked Mom to pick up the covers so that I could see. 
So she stood up and lifted up the covers, and sure enough, 
there it was, a GREAT BIG DISPOSABLE DIAPER!. It looked and 
felt quite comfy. She then put the covers down and noticed a 
little bit of a smile on my face and commented, "Well, this 
may not be as bad for you as I thought it would be." 
	
Part 5

	 Now, it is one thing to get to wear diapers, but it is 
another thing altogether when you have to use them with a 
Mother that won't leave your side. I was laying there and I 
really had to go bad, and I didn't know what to do. So 
finally I asked Mom, "Mom, I need to use the bathroom." And 
she looked at me and said, "Well go right ahead, Sam" and 
just stared at me as though she were wanting to watch. I 
said, "Well, do you have to stare at me?" And she said, 
"Sam, it won't be the first time I've seen you pee pee or 
poo poo in your diapers." With that comment, my face turned 
bright red. I was totally embarrassed. And then I said, 
"Could you at least leave the room until I'm done?" With 
that she said, "No, Sam, I can't." The doctor said we need 
to watch you all the time for a few days to make sure there 
are no other complications that they are not aware of." 
"Well, could you at least turn around then?" With that she 
started laughing and said, "Sammy, these diapers are 
starting to make you act like a baby already!" I looked at 
her and said, "I'll just wait then." And she said, "Good, 
but I don't think you can hold it for a couple of months, 
and that is how long you're gonna be wearing diapers." With 
that, I just turned my head and acted like I fell asleep. 
But my bladder was about to explode! So I slowly relaxed and 
let my bladder relieve itself into the diaper. Man, what a 
relief! And it felt kind of good too. And she didn't even 
know I had done it. And then I heard a buzzer go off. I 
said, "What's that, Mom?" And she said, "Aha, I guess you 
couldn't hold it after all. That was the sensor alerting us 
that you just wet your diaper." 
	Well, I just couldn't believe it! I was totally 
embarrassed again. Mom beeped the nurse to let her know that 
I needed my diaper changed. And I said, "Gee, Mom, did you 
have to talk so loud? Now everybody on this floor knows that 
I have a wet diaper." Then Mom said, "Oh dear, that is 
nothing, wait until you hear the alarm that goes off when 
you poo poo! and then she winked at me, jokingly" 

To be continued.....