From: Sjoerd PostmaSubject: ~My introduction to all ab's & dl's in ASFD... Date: 12 Aug 97 14:08:33 +0100 Hi all ! Some of you might have noticed me allready on ASFD, but I never propperly introduced myself. So here's my contribution to ASFD !! :) My alias is Bimbex and I'm a 25 year young male. The place I live in is called 'Leiden' and it's located in The Netherlands. (near Amsterdam, Rotterdam and Den Haag (The Hague)). It's only a few kilometres from the coast. I've been wearing diapers for a long time in my childhood. I think I was 8 years old when I still had them on to bed. After some time it wasn't needed anymore but I remember wetting the bed occasionaly till the age of 10. When I didn't whore diapers to bed anymore I tried some of my younger brother. He was at that time aprox. 1 year old (I was 8). I know I did try them but can't remember it anymore... I still remember one day when I was 13 years old, I tried his diapers again and stood infront of a big mirror in my parents bedroom. (Woow ! a cool beginning of a story! -Maybe I'll write one after this- :) ). I think I stood there for over 15 minutes posing infront of the mirror. After that I took the diaper of and took on my cloths again. That's what I can remember about the FIRST TIME I tried a diaper on by interest... Some time later in life when I was aprox. 14 years old my parents divorced. (Lots of pretty discusting scenes made and the worst time of my life, I could say). But that didn't stop me about thinking of diapers... At that time I lived by my father. I remember when we got to Denmark to visit his new girlfriend (He had some business in Denmark), that at the first night we where there that Tina's bed (Her daughter of aprox. 10 years old), was crinkeling. The matrass was protected by a plastic foil. I slept in her bed as Tina was visiting her father for the weekend. I couldn't resist it and got out of bed, looking for diapers. I didn't know if she had any, but eventually I found them and tried one on. It felt so good !! I had them on in bed when I fell asleep... The next morning Kira (The girlfriend) woke me up and saw that I was wearing a diaper. I'm not sure if she told my father about it. But I never heard about it. 5 months later when My fathers girlfriend and her daughter where moved over to my house (in Holland). I had stashed a pack of diapers in my room behind my desk. I thought it was a save place to hide it, but not I guess. Kira liked to snoop around in my room (I still dont know why she did that). and found my diapers. Boy ! Lots of trouble in the house ! My father was asking me why I had diapers and why I hide them. (Are parents realy that stupid or what ?). I said that I didnt' know why and was ordered to goto my room and think about it... Tina came in and was making fun of me. After that I can't remember things anymore. I only know that I've been caught wearing diapers several times by my stepmother... When I went to live by my mother again I thought I might be a good idea to start wearing diapers. so i did when I went to bed. My mom knew about it and I started also to wear them as long as possible in the morning. I think my mom knows I like to wear diapers but I'm not sure. Alot happened, and I've been in run away homes and child care homes. I was aprox. 18 at the time and very unstable due to my parents and thier divorce that got uglier and uglier... But I kept on wearing diapers to bed... When I was 18 years old, I've been living in different foster homes till the age of 21. In that time I've had some girlfriends. I have asked them what they tought of me being in diapers. They all seemed to have no problems with it and -sort of- liked seeing me in diapers. One of them, Yolanda, even said to me that I looked cute and liked it very much to see me wearing diapers. I know for a fact that she found me sexual atractive in diapers. Yolanda and I have been together for aporx. 6 months when we splitted up... At the age of 23 I met Karianne. We where neighbours and allready lived 1.5 years next to eachother without knowing eachother. (Funny eh?) I've seen her a couple of times, but didn't noticed it. Or when I noticed it, she was gone. Until one night she came for some coffee by a new member in my house. (I was sharing a house with other people. It's someting like being trained to live on your own. We all have supervisors who came 2 times a week talking how things went and stuff. And once a week we had a meeting with the members of the house.) But she walked into my room and there we where. We both where staring to eachothers for at least 5 minutes ! After that she asked if I had some coffee and I told her that one of my house mates was making it. So she went to him asking about the coffee and said that she would be in my room... She knew about my diapers and stuff. But that's all. I even didn't knew it yet and was very unsecure about telling her that I liked to wear diapers. We've had a relationship for aprox. 2 years with lots of fun but even more trouble, we couldn't get along together at some points. But we became close friends... Till 8 moths ago, I tought I was the only one who did like diapers. I was on the Internet having my usual chats with friends on IRC when I came up with an idea. (I was only wearing diapers when chatting with my friends 'coz it was so hot). I said to them I'll be back later and gave the command to set me away (On IRC), so I wouldn't be disturbt. I iconified my IRC Client (I've an Amiga 1200 computer with lots of goodies in it..:) ), and loaded up my Web browser. went to some search engines and typed keyword 'diaper'.... I went nuts ! It must have been over 10.000 pages to scan trough ! I thought while browsing 'this is not going to work...' - Till I saw someting. My heart was pumping twice the speed it was a moment before. I clicked and read and read and read... I just landed on 'Pampers Place'... There where lots of links and pictures and stories. I thought I died and gone to heaven. I know exactly what I feld on that moment... Happy ! Extremingly happy ! And very relieved knowing there where other people like me. But also some fear and lots of guild... I needed a break from it all so I went to the kitchen for a cup of coffee... But my mind was doing overtime ! I couldn't help it, people who wear diapers -I thought-. People, like me.. I couldn't clear my head for 1 moment. So instead of taking the coffee outside to calm down, I needed to go back to my computer and absorb all the stuff I missed in years ! I've on the internet aprox. 18 hours non-stop till I was exhausted. I needed some rest. While laying in bed my mind was still doing some overtime work. 'Coz I couldn't get my mind on anything else. Eventualy I fell asleep... ...The next day I woke up and (offcoz!) directly thought about the events of yesterday. I made some coffee and went to my computer to turn it on. I browsed trough my WWW Pager's cache and relived the thrills and exitements I had the day before. Then I noticed it was all happening overseas (for me that is, eh? I live in The Netherlands/Europe remember ?). I wanted to find a place in Holland for this kind of stuff so I went back to the Internet to surf to the pages I needed to find. Nothing... Absolutely nothing ! (Boy, was I disapointed!). So I took the first exit from the super highway and took a shower... While taking my shower I was thinking again. There has to be something in the great Netherlands to entertain me in my needs and pleasures... When I was ready taking my shower I felt a bit relaxed and calmed down... Then it struck me ! I've read some books about Masochism. (I was very curious about what it was, and wanted to know about it instead of those stupid TV programms only showing the most extreme SM stuff with leather and whips and stuff !). I remebered there where some adresses on the last pages of one of the books. I found one adress who *MIGHT* do something with adult babys and diaper lovers... The adress and phonenumber of the V.S.S.M. (It's a Dutch Sadomasochism/Masochism club who also have Gay nights and stuff). It took me some time to call them. I was very excited but also very afraid 'coz I didn't know what to say or do... Finally I called and ask the man on the other end of the line if he knew someting about adult babys and/or diaper lovers. Or if he knew some adresses about it. (I was ready to break of the connection to him as I realy couldn't hear him laugh. But instead he said that I have to buy the VSSM magazine as there was an article about it from someone who went there for the first time! We chatted further on and I asked him if he also knew some adresses where I could buy Adult baby articles and other stuff. He gave me a telephone number from a store in (ofcoz!) Rotterdam! I ordered the magazine by him and thanked him for the information he gave me... Still in a trance I was looking to the telephone number I wrote down and moments later I called it. I asked them if they had a Catalog and if I could have one. The man said that they wheren't free, but if i wanted one to be send to me I had to order it by sending cash via a signed letter. (As that was the fastes way to have it home). I asked him for the adress and thanked him... The next minute I was on my way to the nearest post office and sended to cash to the adress. Then I went to town celebrating myself! When I got home I instantly scanned trough the stories and pictures I had collected the night before and became aware of some feelings. Guild. Why do I feel guilty about something I need ? -I asked myself-... Aprox. 5 days later the magazine and the catalog where waiting for me in the mailbox. I couldn't believe they where delivered at the same time !! First, I took the magazine and started reading. I felt great ! Now I have the possebility to go to a meeting and meet other AB's and DL's !! Then I took the catalog. So much cloths !! (Also non-baby related where i'm not interested in). At this time on I still haven't got to any meetings and didn't got any cloths bought, yet. But I will soon.. :) However, I've bought a pacifier and have it hanging on my neck most of the time. It's funny when people are looking at it when I'm at friends or other places.. :) I've recently found out about ASFD and I intend to make full use of it ! :) Also would I like to say that some people on IRC might have seen me some time ago on IRC channel #Diapers/Undernet and I will be back soon.. :) I realy love you all as you are my soul-mates ! Greetz and many many HuG's from bimbex in The Netherlands !! :) Don't hestitate to Email me if you want to.. :) I surely would like to have some contacts.. However, the Email I use at this moment is from a friend of mine who knows about this stuff and my activities with it. Don't worry, he'll keep this all convidential. I hope to have my own Email adress soon. :) -Bimbex