Why I Continue to Wear Diapers.

by David Thomson

	 My fourth grade teacher, Mr. Graff, passed out 
permission slips to the whole class to take home and be 
signed. The school district required parents to approve of 
their children's attendance at the drug and sex education 
movies to be shown in the classrooms. I could feel that 
something was about to change the course of my life, but it 
was a destiny I felt I could not avoid. I reluctantly took 
home the slip, had it signed and returned it to my teacher.
	The following week, I was sitting in front of a 
projector screen with all but a few of my classmates. Some 
parents were outraged at this school event and refused to 
allow their children to participate. The screen lit up and 
the series of films began. I can still see some footage of 
the movies in my mind today. The part about sharing a 
cigarette as being the same as sharing a toothbrush still 
makes me roar with laughter in my mind. To think that adults 
thought I would be so stupid as to believe that fairy tale 
was absurd.
	But there were other parts of the movie which struck a 
chord in me. I was only 9, but I realized that indeed I 
would soon be going through puberty. I could see from the 
perverted behavior of the adults in my life that I would 
soon be captivated by this thing called a sex drive. The 
change I sensed was taking effect. My mind was suddenly 
consumed with pondering and waiting to see what would happen 
to my sex drive.
	When I was ten, I was sitting in the privacy of my own 
fort I had built in the backyard. My mind was aimlessly 
drifting that hot sultry day when a thought occurred to me. 
I was particularly amused by the source of this thought 
although its content was also striking. It seemed as though 
someone was talking to me through my mind. The exact wording 
of the thought was, "why not wear diapers to control your 
sex drive?" I remember my next thought was to question its 
origin. Why would I think something like that?
	After concluding that I was being instructed by an 
inner voice, I thought about where I could find a diaper. As 
it turned out, my baby-sitter had 8 children, the youngest 
of whom was in diapers. Against my better judgment, I went 
to the baby-sitters and stole some diapers to try out. That 
was the beginning of my life wearing diapers.
	I was not at all disappointed by my discovery and felt 
that I had solved the problem of how to deal with my sex 
drive. About a year later, at the age of 11, I was walking 
down the sidewalk and turned into our driveway. I happened 
to glance at the sky through the trees when I was 
temporarily transported beyond time and space in my mind. I 
saw my future wife and her name was Nancy. I saw my two 
children, Dana and Vincent, a girl and a boy born in that 
order. I could see that we were living in a mobile home in 
the country surrounded by lots of green trees. A voice spoke 
to me and told me that I would not need to worry about 
finding a girl friend or having sex with anyone. When the 
time was right, I would be told and my wife will come to me. 
It seemed to have been predetermined by a previous mutual 
agreement.
	So, through my teen years, when my sex drive became 
strong, I would wear diapers. The sensation was so 
completely satisfying that I had very few other thoughts 
about sex. When I met girls, all I saw was a human being, 
equal to me. I never saw anyone as an object of my sex 
drive. I recognized perversion all around me, but I had no 
desire to participate or investigate. I remember the many 
futile attempts by my step-father to get me to look at sex 
magazines and sex paraphernalia. I simply had no interest in 
such things.
	When I finally got to dating age, I went on dates and 
enjoyed the friendship of the opposite sex, but had no 
desire for sex. With one particular girlfriend, we both 
explored each others bodies and probed with our fingers. But 
we both had the sense to refrain from intercourse. We knew 
we were too young. Inwardly, I also knew that when the time 
was right, I would be given an unmistakable sign.
	As a result of wearing diapers and having an outlet for 
my sexual energy, I soon discovered that my desire to be 
wild and mischievous was related to long periods without 
sex. I also discovered that too much sexual expression 
caused me to lose interest in other worthwhile pursuits and 
so I had to exercise restraint as well. There were a few 
moments of intense stress in my life where I entertained 
some perverted thoughts, but the diapers and my conscience 
quickly dispersed them.
	I remember hearing the news reports about child 
molesters. I had to ask myself what a child molester was and 
upon reflection realized how vulnerable I was to becoming a 
pervert. I am thankful to this day that I was never 
physically approached by a pervert in my life, because I 
feel I easily could have been misled. After considerable 
reflection, I determined that I would never allow the 
thought of having sex with anyone other than myself enter my 
mind. To this day, I have never mentally undressed anyone or 
even fantasized of having sex with anyone, whether they be 
man, woman, child or beast. Only twice have I had wet 
dreams, once with the girl whose body I probed with my 
fingers and the other with the woman I married.
	My wife came to me as I had foreseen and I saw the 
unmistakable sign I was expecting. I told her of my sexual 
outlet soon after we met. Through our marriage, I still wore 
diapers. I will admit, I was amazed that my wife didn't 
mind.
	I know it was because of the diapers that I was able to 
focus on my family and meet all their needs. My needs were 
met and I was satisfied. It was only natural for me to want 
to extend this humanitarian thought to everyone I 
encountered. I made certain my wife and children were well 
fed, clothed and sheltered. And because I had no guilt from 
perversion or other mischievous deeds, I was able to focus 
intensely on our spiritual needs as well. I led the 
happiest, healthiest and most spiritually fulfilled family 
in the world.
	When my wife left me for her own personal reasons, I 
became very depressed. My life was devastated and I went to 
live in a monastery. In the monastery I tried to completely 
overcome my need for sex. I did not succeed. I found that 
even a life of spiritual dedication was not enough for me to 
overcome my sex drive. Eventually I left the monastery. I 
was still wearing diapers.
	Once again, diapers were my saving grace. Through all 
my depression and anger, I always had something I could turn 
to for releasing my energy and strength. I successfully 
avoided all temptations to become violent and hateful by 
retreating to my diapers. By this time I was beginning to 
see a very clear picture as to how beneficial diapers are to 
men in our civilization. The root of all problems I 
encountered and the root of all my successes was in my sex 
drive. The key to being a balanced male human is in having 
reasonable control of our sex drives.
	As a result of wearing diapers, I have never sexually 
harassed, assaulted anyone or even fantasized of doing such. 
As a result of wearing diapers I have only had sex with the 
woman I married, I have never had a sexual disease, and I 
have avoided the suffering caused by inconsiderate and 
shallow relationships. As a result of wearing diapers I was 
able to prevent my emotions from becoming extreme and 
unmanageable. As a result of wearing diapers I was able to 
prevent and alleviate the causes of violence and hate within 
me. The end result is that I am able to fully focus on my 
spiritual pursuit of divine and unconditional love without 
many of the blockages inherent in guilt, hate, and anger.
	I still wear diapers today, but I am not ashamed. I am 
very thankful that I have listened to my inner guidance and 
followed his advice. I feel as though I have discovered the 
key to my spiritual door within. I feel as though I have 
healed the weakness of the body. Just as a healthy diet, 
good breathing habits, and fresh water are useful for good 
heath, so is personal sex management also useful. Sex 
management is useful for the balance of the body's strength 
and emotions, and removes many obstacles to the mind's will.
	I'm not certain that diapers are the only way or the 
best way to manage the sex drive, but they have performed 
excellent for me.