Zaperbaby's Story

My Story

I'm a adult who likes to wear diapers, and play baby / 
little boy, so I'm an adult baby some times. Infantilism 
(that another word for it) has NOTHING to do with real kids 
or babies!!

How I Became an Infantilist.

	First, of all my childhood was not very good. My dad 
abused my mom. I can remember when he used to throw things 
around. I think I was about 6 or 7. When they divorced 
after that me and my brothers would visit my dad on the 
weekends. Sometimes he wouldn't pick us up on the weekends 
or my mom would not let us go to our dad's. Our cousin came 
over one night and he was a betwetter, and for some reason 
I wanted to try his diaper but didn't ask. A couple of 
weeks later I made a diaper out of a plastic bag and a 
towel and slept in the diaper. To my surprise my mom came 
in that morning and got me up. I don't know if she saw my 
homemade diaper. I was under the covers and she didn't say 
anything. She left the room and I pulled off my homemade 
diaper and hid it in my night table and later washed the 
towel. We never use that towel so I kept using it once and 
a while. I thought I was crazy wanting to wear a diaper and 
I almost got caught a few times.
	I stopped wearing my homemade diapers for a while when 
I was about 11. My older brother sexually abused me and 
told me if I told any one about it he would kill me. When I 
was 13 I skipped school and my older brother was at school. 
I told my mom and told her that he said that he would kill 
me if I told anyone. My mom phoned the police and when my 
older brother got home the police took him away to the 
police station and he admitted that he sexually abused me. 
He was sentenced to stay away from children and us unless 
we were supervised for two years. He wasn't allowed back 
home. He had to stay at a shelter. He apologized to me and 
he said he was very sorry for what he did. I accepted his 
apology. For the next two years we had to be with our mom 
or our dad when we were around him.
	When I was around 14 I was starting to wear diapers 
again. I still thought I was crazy but I really liked it 
and I liked to suck on my thumb. I liked to drink out a 
cups made for toddlers. My younger brother caught me doing 
this. I was just wearing a diaper. He said "How come you're 
wearing a diaper?" and I said, "Because I wanted to see 
what it feels like." He tried it, too but he didn't like 
it. He never told my mom and I stopped wearing them for a 
long time.
	I was about 16 and I made another diaper out of a 
garbage bag. I didn't want to get caught by mom so I 
stopped doing it for a long time again and I still sucked 
my thumb and sometime drank out of toddler cups. When I was 
18 I decided to move out. I had a roommate that respected 
my privacy. for the first six or so months I didn't wear 
any diapers than started to wear them once and a while. for 
some reason I found some disposable adult diapers in a bag 
in the closet by the front door. I then took two of them 
about a month ago told my roommate about wanting to sleep 
with a diaper on. His wife had died a year ago and he said 
his wife liked to wear diapers even though she didn't need 
them. I told him that I liked to wear diapers at night 
because once and a while I wet the bed, but that's not 
true. I don't ever remember wetting the bed. I never told 
him that I like to act like a toddler and to play like a 
toddler. If I had my way I'd been diapered all the time 
when I'm at home. I'm too embarrassed to tell my roommate 
that, but I still get to wear them at night so that's fine 
with me.
	It's a good thing I found DPF on the Internet because 
I thought I was going crazy and I was getting depressed and 
sometimes throughout my life I thought about killing 
myself. But now I'm not the only one who likes to wear 
diapers and play like a toddler.
	Well, that's my story. At least I didn't end up like 
my little brother. He was doing drugs for about 2 or 3 
years. He was stealing my money when I was not home and he 
got in trouble with a law a few times, but now he's 
straightening out. He's not stealing money anymore he 
stopped doing drugs as far as I know now. Sometimes he 
takes me out for coffee. I told my younger brother that I 
like to wear diapers. He was not that surprised. He said he 
would keep it a secret. I haven't told him that I like to 
act like a toddler.
	I told my mom about three weeks ago that I liked to 
wear diapers and showed her Tommy his theory of 
Infantilism. She wasn't mad at all. I didn't tell her that 
I like to act like a toddler. I still haven't told my dad 
and I don't think I ever will. I haven't told my older 
brother. I don't really see much of my older brother 
anymore. I don't really like him any way. See you all 
happy.

Zaperbaby