For some of you this might need a little introduction. What is infantalism?
I can only speak from personal experience. For a really good academic infantalism
page visit BitterGrey's
Den
My love of diapers is certainly a part of me. It is a part that often
does not get expressed. I am still struggling with this, as I am sure many
other people are. Anytime anyone does not conform to the "normal"
societal constraints, they are subject to riddicule. Infantalism is not
widly accepted, or even known about. If I had to describe infantalism breifly,
I would say it is the desire to use diapers forr their intended purpose.
Infantalism also may include the desire to be treated like a baby, including
bottles, baby clothing etc. Infantalists run a wide range, in their intrests,
desires, and sexual orientation. One point I would like to make abundantly
clear is that it has nothing to do with children, whatsoever!!
My diaper desires go pretty far back. It's hard to even figure out when.
I just remember being drawn to them. I was intrigued, and wanted to see
a diaper, and wear one. As an only child I didn't have a great deal of
exposure to diapers besides my own infancy. As a male, I was also supposed
to have no interaction with diaper changing etc. I'm sure this helped to
spur my intrests, but it's hard to say how much. Even as a little kid I
remember playing house and wanting to be the baby. I guess that never ended.
So for many years I was involved in a silent struggle. I wanted to get
my hands on diapers, but couldn't. When my baby cousin came to visit when
I was about 8, I really wanted to snag a diaper for myself. It was useless
though. I was to embarrressed and ashamed to try, and besides, it wouldn't
fit anyway. For the time being I had to be content with makeshift diapers,
from old sheets and other household items.
Then, I turned 16, and got my driver's license. One day I drove to the
store (far away of course) and picked up a package of Depends. By far not
the best on the market, but it was sure ecstasy for me. I was finally wearing
diapers!! I later found Attends, which were better. I was very happy
with my new found diapers. I was content to wet and mess in them on my
own. I still felt tremendous guilt for my actions. I knew it wasn't "normal".
I also felt like the only "freak" who was interested in this.
When I left for college, I knew things had to channge. With a roommate
I could never keep my baby stuff. I left that at home. I also thought I
left my desires. Little did I know college would only strengthen my desires.
At college, I first discovered the internet. I typed in diaper sex, and
found sites!! I was shocked. I learned I was not alone, but now what?
As a sophmore in college, I am just starting to feel more confident in
my academic choices for life. Now comes the hard part. I come from a middle
class suburb of New York City. I generally like most aspects of my life.
On campus, I also discovered my faith again in Christ. This only serves
to complicate matters. I want to accept myself, for who I am. I also am
trying to define relationships for myself. Will my life long partner also
be a diaper lover? How will this fit in with my normal life? It sometimes
gets you feeling like you are living a double life. I don't want to do that.
if you want to send me an email ,
I am always ready to meet new friends. Thanks for taking the time to listen
to my rambling.
The first, and probably largest
group of adult babies DPF . Can you guess
what it stands for?
Gordo's
Adult Babyland Formerly, Gordo was known as "Pampers"
Davee's
playpen A fun place with a lot of pics
BBIF
mailing list Just send an email to become part of the Big Babies Infantalists
and Friends mailing list
Space
Baby Bob's Nursery A really cool site. user:abyuser password:babybottle