Old Habits Die Hard

Part 61

While the woman went through her purse looking for money to pay Juanita, another woman showed up with her two boys, both around ten and her daughter about eight or nine. Juanita looked over at me sitting there in my diaper in the middle of the changing quilt with Rudy and said.

"John, you don’t want to sit in the house all day, honey, go on out and play." But I couldn’t get up. I sat there paralyzed, trying to hide my diaper with my arms folded in front of me as the parents came and dropped their kids off and left. I know I wasn’t fooling anyone. They all could see I was wearing a diaper but still it was easier to just sit there than get up and walk across the room in front of everyone and go outside in it.

"Come on, John, you're not going to have any fun with Rudy. Let’s go out back with the other kids," Juanita said as she came over and took my hand and pulled me to my feet. My knees felt weak as I was stood up in my thick diaper in front of the other people, and led toward the kitchen and the back porch.

"You go on out and play with the other kids baby it's to nice to be in the house all day," Juanita said as she turned me loose on the back porch and started back into the house.

"Oh, and John, you come and tell me or Pam when you need your diaper changed, okay? I don’t want you running around in a nasty diaper making that rash any worse," she added as she disappeared into the house to meet more arrivals.

I went and hid at the other end of the porch by the large galvanized sink after Juanita went back inside. I could see Naomi and Randy on the big see-saw laughing and having fun out in the yard. Rebecca asked Naomi if she could get on the see-saw for awhile so Naomi got off and sat on a swing and Rebecca got on the see-saw with Randy. As Randy and Rebecca began going up and down Rebecca looked at Naomi and said, "Too bad you missed it, Naomi."

"Missed what, Rebecca?" Naomi asked.

"Randy had to wear a diaper all day Friday because he messed in his pants,” Rebecca informed Naomi as she giggled.

"NO I DIDNT!" Randy quickly responded, sounding terribly embarrassed.

"Yes you did, you had to wear a diaper all day long, didn’t he, Lisa?" Rebecca said laughing as she and Randy slowly went up and down on the see-saw. Lisa didn’t say anything but giggled and shook her head yes!

Naomi sat there with her mouth open and eyebrows dropped as she looked at Randy in disbelief, looking as if she were trying to picture Randy in a diaper, too. Randy and that boy John were both wearing diapers all day long like a couple big babies!" Rebecca said laughing. I stood on the porch cringing in my thick cotton diaper as I overheard the conversation, Then Rebecca stopped the see-saw with Randy stuck up in the air and said, "I saw your pee-pee. I saw your pee-pee," Rebecca chanted teasing Randy. The other kids were giggling and laughing as Rebecca teased Randy.

"LET ME DOWN!" Randy ordered with his feet kicking as he was stranded in the air with everyone laughing.

Rebecca wasn’t a mean girl like Patricia, and her tone wasn’t that of a bully. She was just teasing Randy in the way any kid would tease another kid about having to wear diapers at eight years old.

"I guess John’s still in the house!" Naomi said as she hopped off the swing and came running to the screen door of the porch. I ducked down behind the big sink at the other end of the porch as Naomi entered the porch and went into the house looking for me.

"JOHNN! JOHNNNNN!" I heard her yell as she went inside. Then I heard her ask Juanita if she'd seen me. The next thing I knew Juanita was out on the porch with Naomi looking concerned about my absence. I ducked down again but Juanita got a glimpse of me and walked over to me.

"John, you go on out and play like I told you to, for goodness sake. You had me scared to death!" Juanita said as she took me by the wrist and walked me toward the screen door. She then opened the screen door and dragged me down the steps and out into the yard and said, "Now you go play and stop worrying me!" as she left me standing there in front of the other kids in nothing but my diaper. I ran back toward the sand box in my thick diaper to escape the laughs, giggles, and comments made by some of the kids who wanted to torment me about wearing diapers.

"JOHN! STOPPP! WHERE ARE YOU GOINGGG?!” Naomi shouted as she ran behind me. I stopped when I got to the sandbox it was a kind of secluded area surrounded by shrubbery on three sides and gave me a little privacy from the other kids who preferred the playground area.

Part 62

"John, don’t let them bother you, just ignore them and they'll stop teasing you. " Naomi said sympathetically.

"I don’t want everyone looking at me and seeing me in a diaper, they all think I’m stupid!" I replied.

"Well, I don’t think you're stupid and I don’t care about you wearing those diapers, it's only for a couple weeks," Naomi said trying to make me feel better.

Then I saw Rebecca slowly walking back toward Naomi and I as we stood talking by the sandbox. She was walking with her head down kind of and holding her long blonde hair away from her face with her hand.

"What're you guys doing back here?” Rebecca asked in a subdued tone.

"John ran back here because you guys were laughing at him and I don’t think it was very nice, either," Naomi told Rebecca.

"I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, John. I didn’t mean to, I was just trying to have fun. I didn’t think you looked very upset about having to wear a diaper, so I didn’t think it would really bother you,” Rebecca said in her defense.

"Well, you wouldn’t think it was funny if your mom made YOU wear diapers?!" I told Rebecca as I stood there before her with my arms in front of me trying to hide my big thick diaper.

"No, John, I wouldn’t think it was funny if my mom made me wear diapers. But then I haven’t messed my pants since I was probably two years old, either!"

"Well, my mom said that when John's ready to stop messing his pants, he'll stop messing his pants and she doesn’t think his mom should have made him wear diapers!" Naomi said boldly.

"REBECCAAAA! REBECCAAAAA!" I heard some girl shouting and getting closer.

"She's back here talking to that boy in the diaper!" The little girl said. Then a couple more girls and boys began to gather around and gawk at me standing there in my diaper. I felt like a statue frozen to the spot where I was standing for a moment as the kids gathered around Rebecca, Naomi and I but then threw myself down behind the big sandbox on my knees to hide my diaper from everyone’s curious eyes.

"John, everyone's already seen you wearing a diaper, why do you feel you still need to hide like that?" Rebecca asked curiously, and to tell you the truth, making perfect sense.

"I don’t like everyone looking at me and seeing me like this!" I responded, feeling so ashamed about wearing a diaper. Just because they had all seen me in diapers already didn’t make it any easier.

"Go awayyy, please, just go away and leave me alone!" I told them as they stood around staring at me. All the younger kids ran off to play giggling and laughing as they left. Juanita’s daughter Cindy came back looking for Naomi.

"Naomi, Mom is getting ready to breastfeed Christina and said if you wanted to watch to come on into the house," Then Cindy turned and ran back to the house.

"I'll be back later John, okay?" Naomi said as she took off after Cindy.

Now just Rebecca was left there with me. There was an uncomfortable silence as Rebecca stood there alone watching me diddle in the sand.

"Rebecca, could you go ask Randy if he wants to play in the sandbox with me?" I asked her, feeling awkwardly alone. Rebecca said "Sure, I'll go ask him," and she left. She was gone for a few minutes and then returned to tell me, "John, Randy said he doesn’t want to play in the sandbox today."

"Ohhh, okay," I responded, feeling disappointed and abandoned.

"I'll set back here with you for awhile if you want me to," Rebecca said as she sat on the edge of the sandbox at the opposite end from me.

"Okay!" I responded, feeling relieved that I might have made another friend and wouldn’t have to be alone. I felt that damned Randy wanted nothing to do with me now that I was still wearing diapers and he wasn’t. When he was wearing a diaper, I couldn’t get rid of him. Now this gorgeous eleven year old blonde is sitting on the edge of the sand box across from me while I’m on my knees at the back side of the sandbox trying to hide my diaper. No ones saying anything as she watches me sitting there, dragging my finger through the sand.

"Do you wanna help me build some roads and stuff for the cars and trucks?" I asked her, trying to break the silence. Rebecca giggled as she gently pulled her long blonde hair away from her face saying, "Wellll... I don’t really care for playing with cars and trucks, but I'll sit here and watch you build roads for them if it's ok with you," she responded sounding so feminine and sweet as she smiled at me.

Part 63

"Naomi seems to like you a lot, doesn’t she?" Rebecca asked.

"Yeah, she's my girlfriend,” I answered quietly, beginning to feel Rebecca was genuine and someone I could talk to. Her whole presence had now seemed to become very calming and disarming.

"Ohhhh, she's your girlfriend, I seeee," Rebecca responded sounding curious but friendly.

"Well, it doesn’t seem to bother HER, that you have to wear diapers, does it?" Rebecca asked.

I paused for a moment and answered, "Well, we used to have a lot more fun before my mom started making me wear diapers, and Naomi says it's okay for now. But says she can’t wait until it's over and we can play like we used to."

"Yeah, I'll bet it's really hard to have fun when everyone's looking at you and laughing because you're wearing a diaper. And I'll bet it's hard for Naomi, too, being teased about having a boyfriend who has to wear diapers,” Rebecca responded as she began making hand impressions in the sand.

"I watched Mrs. Roberts change Randy’s diaper last Friday, I'll bet it's awful to have to lay there like a baby and let her change your diapers, isn’t it?"

"Yeah," is all I could say at that point, becoming more and more embarrassed with the whole conversation. And I couldn’t tell Rebecca I was actually beginning to like the babying I was getting from Juanita, somehow, I was ashamed that I liked it, but liked it anyway, and I didn’t understand these conflicting feelings that I had about the whole thing. But one thing I WAS sure of, is I hated everyone else watching me being changed or even seeing me in a diaper. But secretly I wanted to be Juanita’s baby. I just didn’t want anyone else to see it or know about it.

"May I ask you something, John?" Rebecca asked hesitantly.

"Sure," I answered.

"Are you going to hate me if I watch Mrs. Roberts change your diaper?"

I didn’t know how to answer her question. I didn’t want to say or make her think I'd hate her, but I definitely didn’t want her to see me having my diaper changed either. I could feel my face getting red and hot and my heart begin to beat harder as I became more and more embarrassed at her questions.

"I don’t like for any of the other kids to see that!" I answered softly.

Just then, Naomi came running back to the sandbox where Rebecca and I were having our conversation. Juanita must have finished breast feeding the little girl.

"Naomi, John tells me he's your boyfriend," Rebecca says as Naomi joins us.

"Yeppp. See? This is the ring he gave me!" Naomi says proudly with a big smile holding her hand right up in Rebecca’s face showing Rebecca her plastic ring and stone.

"Well. I can see why you'd want John to be your boyfriend. He's a very nice boy, "Rebecca assured Naomi, as she smiled and winked at me.

"Mrs. Roberts’ girls all seem to be very nice to you, don’t they, John?" Rebecca asked. I was hoping this conversation was over as Naomi returned.

"Yeah, except Michele. She's mad at me because I kinda got her grounded for two weeks,” I answered, trying to think of another topic to discuss.

"I know a secret about Michele, but you can’t tell anyone!" Rebecca said, looking like she couldn’t wait to tell us.

"What?! Tell us!" Naomi asked anxiously.

"Okay. Two summers ago Michele took her boyfriend into the playhouse. She showed him her wee-wee and he showed her his pee-pee, and then they touched them together," Rebecca said laughing and sounding excited, too.

"NUHH-UHHHHHH! GROSSSSS!" Naomi responded hearing this from Rebecca.

"Yes they did, I swear. Michele said that's what grownups do when they love each other— they touch their pee-pee and wee-wee together," Rebecca said, giggling.

"EEEEWWWWWW! I don’t know if I could EVERRRRRR do that! Even when I'm grown up!" Naomi said, laughing.

"That's where pee comes from!" Naomi added as she looked at me and laughed.

"I know, but all grownups do it!" Rebecca whispered loudly, giggling.

I think Naomi and I were both thinking the same thing as we looked at each other, wondering what it would be like. I thought the touching part sounded a little nasty, but wondered what it would be like to see Naomi’s wee-wee. I didn’t even get an erection thinking about it. I was only nine years old. It was just a curiosity thing, and I was learning more about the male and female anatomy this summer than ever before.

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